thizzbaby
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- Dec 13, 2008
I always turn to NT, because it really feels liek a fam on here. and there are so many wise people that can give honest and sound adivce, amid the people thatjust post ignorant and belligerant things.
anyways, heres my situation:
my parents divorced when i was younger. at about the age of4 they split up. up until maybe the past year ive had a coo relationship with my father. that wasuntil he left the church and had an affair on his wife. After this event i lost respect for him as a father, but i respected him as a person. i felt this wayuntil he came to my job high as hell and in his own words "dude, im so stoned!". after this i complelty lost respect for him and decided it would bebetter to keep him out of my life and keep hustling by myself. I feel that i dont ned to hve that type of influence in my life. a 45 year old getting high anddrunk every weekend? what type of life is that. He's my father, yet im the one tha has to tell him what hes doing is wrong? needless to say, i currentlyhave no relationship with my father. i probably would not say hi to him if i saw him on the street.
Now, about 4 years ago my mother re-married. My step-father is not a bad man, he provides for the family. but he is distant from both my mother and myself.its wierd to me that they are married but only talk to each other maybe 2 hours in a day. I don't speak to my step dad because we just do our own thing. iwork, he works we just never se each other and we both don't put much effort to say hi to each other.
This was what happened yesterday:
my relationship with my mother is horrible. im only home about 2 hours when shes home, yet we lways seem to argue about anything. i try to maintain my cool andbe respectful. but after a while it just gets to me. shes always putting me down and i just dont wnt to talk to someone that is constantly saying negativethings. yesterday she was doing "the usual" putting me down, saying i looked like a *%*$%% (shell constantly say shes ashamd that i act liek im blackand wear *%*$%% shoes). and when i tried to was my clothes, she told me that i couldnt use "her" soap. She tried to take my phone (which i completlypay for myself every month) and it just made me blow up. as i said previously. ialwayss try to maintain my cool and be respectful, but theres a certain pointwhere i cant take it. shes the type of person where shell keep soming back to say something even when the conversation is over. my step dad heard me yellingand just came to tell me to leave the house. when i wouldnt leave he called the cops on me. the police came, asked questions and said legally i could stay(luckily, im still 17).
i decided it was best for me to leave so everything would cool down. so i packed some socks underwear, cdp 12's. and i was out. walking to my homies houseabout 3 miles away at 11pm.
anyways. NT. what am i supposed to do? Anyone been through my situation? im trying my best yo. i really am. im 17, turning 18 on the 28th of february. and imtrying to hustle to get mine. i mean i want to do something with my life. im getting scholarships from various universities, i dont smoke, dont drink. i feelas if my mother will never be proud of me, and thats all im trying to do. im doing my best to make her proud but it never feels like anything is enough. shealways has to knick pick at everything. im honestly scared that my birthday is coming upso soon. i feel like im going to be kicked out to fend for myself. icant say im prepared. because im not, but im going to do what i have to do to make it.
notes on a cliff:
no relationship with either parent
argued with mom
step-father called cops
walked to friends house at 11pm with a few clothes
staying at friends house
trying to make it to college, and be someone/ do something
really stressed and just need some advice/guidance from the old nt heads.
anyways, heres my situation:
my parents divorced when i was younger. at about the age of4 they split up. up until maybe the past year ive had a coo relationship with my father. that wasuntil he left the church and had an affair on his wife. After this event i lost respect for him as a father, but i respected him as a person. i felt this wayuntil he came to my job high as hell and in his own words "dude, im so stoned!". after this i complelty lost respect for him and decided it would bebetter to keep him out of my life and keep hustling by myself. I feel that i dont ned to hve that type of influence in my life. a 45 year old getting high anddrunk every weekend? what type of life is that. He's my father, yet im the one tha has to tell him what hes doing is wrong? needless to say, i currentlyhave no relationship with my father. i probably would not say hi to him if i saw him on the street.
Now, about 4 years ago my mother re-married. My step-father is not a bad man, he provides for the family. but he is distant from both my mother and myself.its wierd to me that they are married but only talk to each other maybe 2 hours in a day. I don't speak to my step dad because we just do our own thing. iwork, he works we just never se each other and we both don't put much effort to say hi to each other.
This was what happened yesterday:
my relationship with my mother is horrible. im only home about 2 hours when shes home, yet we lways seem to argue about anything. i try to maintain my cool andbe respectful. but after a while it just gets to me. shes always putting me down and i just dont wnt to talk to someone that is constantly saying negativethings. yesterday she was doing "the usual" putting me down, saying i looked like a *%*$%% (shell constantly say shes ashamd that i act liek im blackand wear *%*$%% shoes). and when i tried to was my clothes, she told me that i couldnt use "her" soap. She tried to take my phone (which i completlypay for myself every month) and it just made me blow up. as i said previously. ialwayss try to maintain my cool and be respectful, but theres a certain pointwhere i cant take it. shes the type of person where shell keep soming back to say something even when the conversation is over. my step dad heard me yellingand just came to tell me to leave the house. when i wouldnt leave he called the cops on me. the police came, asked questions and said legally i could stay(luckily, im still 17).
i decided it was best for me to leave so everything would cool down. so i packed some socks underwear, cdp 12's. and i was out. walking to my homies houseabout 3 miles away at 11pm.
anyways. NT. what am i supposed to do? Anyone been through my situation? im trying my best yo. i really am. im 17, turning 18 on the 28th of february. and imtrying to hustle to get mine. i mean i want to do something with my life. im getting scholarships from various universities, i dont smoke, dont drink. i feelas if my mother will never be proud of me, and thats all im trying to do. im doing my best to make her proud but it never feels like anything is enough. shealways has to knick pick at everything. im honestly scared that my birthday is coming upso soon. i feel like im going to be kicked out to fend for myself. icant say im prepared. because im not, but im going to do what i have to do to make it.
notes on a cliff:
no relationship with either parent
argued with mom
step-father called cops
walked to friends house at 11pm with a few clothes
staying at friends house
trying to make it to college, and be someone/ do something
really stressed and just need some advice/guidance from the old nt heads.
