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Hey NT, it's about 1:00 am where i'm at in Canada, i'm still up because of what happened earlier in the day. Either i'm just bugging orit's something real serious, I went to take a no.2 around 6 o clock pm, couldn't actually go, but when I stood up, felt running, I know I know sick,the boy done messed himself, I thought that too, but when I look into the toilet, it was blood. First reaction was neutral im like alright it's whatever,then I just searched the internet, had me trippin hard because i'm reading all these symptoms of all the different types of Cancer. I mean I wouldn'tput it past me, my father died of stomach cancer/cancerous of the liver. That's not all I read though, the internet said it could be internalhemorrhoids(pretty serious), food poisoning,bleeding ulcer and the trippy thing about it is, I don't think I express any signs of anything, my stomachdoesn't always hurt, i'm not losing weight, just that one blood incident had me going. I told mom, shes my heart, she can't even sleep now, shekeeps worrying about me and she keeps telling me over and over that just keep thinking in the positive sense, it might not be Cancer and whatnot, I don'treally know I was going to go to the doctor today to get myself checked because this type of thing isn't common I don't think. Call me what you want,but I spent the whole night thinking of whether or not I should go to the doctors, if I had cancer and it's punch-out time, theres no where I can go onthis earth that would save me, when upstairs calls me, in a sense I wanna leave it and whatever it is, it turns out the way it is, but I also feel likeknowing, it would put my heart at ease, as well as my family.
What do you think NT, ever have any bad feelings about your life, think it's bad, but turns out for the worst?
What do you think NT, ever have any bad feelings about your life, think it's bad, but turns out for the worst?