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Just found out that I have bipolar disorder. At first it did not make sense as I thought I just had ADHD and General Anxiety but after seeing a psychiatrist it all makes sense now. I have racing thoughts, highs and lows that can switch from minutes to hours, days, weeks or months. I walk around with either a sad face like the world is on my shoulders or I feel like I am the greatest thing in the world and have unrealistic expectations of my self. This led me to have low self esteem and social anxiety and I have alienated a lot of people and the absolute worst with women. The only reason I have friends is because I have been a nice guy and they can tolerate me but I am so random of a person and don't keep in touch enough or feel I am a burden on people shoulders. I have lost contact with a lot of people unintentionally because I am of in my own world or I just randomly contact a friend when I have a high mood but then eventually loose touch because I am easily distracted. I have had suicidal thoughts or wishing that things were different or I was another person. I never really took any step towards attempting suicide because deep down I know I have friends and family that care for me and love me. Smoking or drinking does not really solve any problems and sometimes amplifies a mood. Bud is all right but I know I can't live on that to get by on life. My psychiatrist gave me a sample pack of Depakote er so I hope that helps to at least control or manage my mood. Does any one else go through this?
Cliffs
-May Have Bipolar Disorder
-Makes sense when looking at symptoms
-Racing thoughts, pressured speech, random personality,
-WILL NOT GIVE IN TO SUICIDAL THOUGHTS. NEVER.
-Taking a trial sample of meds used to treat Bipolar Disorder
Any other person on NT with this.
Cliffs
-May Have Bipolar Disorder
-Makes sense when looking at symptoms
-Racing thoughts, pressured speech, random personality,
-WILL NOT GIVE IN TO SUICIDAL THOUGHTS. NEVER.
-Taking a trial sample of meds used to treat Bipolar Disorder
Any other person on NT with this.