Confessions

I've spent mo while life trying to better than my dad, that ish ended this past weekend and I'm accepting my youth.
 
You're becoming your own man b, ty ty. :hat

Linked up with this dude who went to my school, I realize I may have a small case of social anxiety.
 
New chick in my department at work got an *** that would make da Chevy scrape, and Dat joint got me ready to throw out all my morals and simp hard body :{
 
LSD changed my lens
I feel objects differently now
The place on your body with the most nerve connections to your brain is your hands
It's a trip bc whenever I indulge or deprive (with anything- food, sleep, or any other intoxicants) the trippiest things happen with my hands
Mainly the size of objects
take a cigarette for example- sometimes it feels as thick as a needle, other times it'll feel like a magic marker
Hard to explain
But I hate the **** that ppl talk- if you drop acid you'll never be the same
like... okay? when I lost my virginity I could never go back to who I was before that
Basically, you can say that phrase about anything

It's been too long since I've dropped or shroomed and I miss them both

Yeah, it's different for everyone. I feel things the same. I view things mostly the same. But I see the world much more vividly than I did before I feel like. Especially nature, nature now has just become so :smokin

But yeah, for the most part I wouldn't say it changed me as in my personality or who I am or anything, it just changed the way I view the world a little bit and the way I perceive things.
 
Might have to wait out a semester of college since my parents can't afford it in time :{

But if this happens in the meantime I can look for a job to help out since I have some wheels now :hat :hat
 
1/4-1/2 of a Xanax pull calms my body down and I don't sweat, unless it gets really hot. It helps me keep me cool and talk in social situations. Problem is I don't have a prescrip/don't know people here that sell.


First day of school went well, hope it continues
 
I was so caught up in my feelings tonight that I relapsed for the first time in 1.5 years.
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I am an idiot. I honestly don't want to wake up tomorrow.
relapsed?
 
Sorry sis, def go and check out some facilities near where you live or if possible try a soul seeking journey to help find yourself 
 
Challenging myself to be social more but i don't know how

How do you meet people at college

My many flaws, guess why i can't find happiness

narcissistic but castdown by everyone has me broken
 
 
Challenging myself to be social more but i don't know how

How do you meet people at college

My many flaws, guess why i can't find happiness

narcissistic but castdown by everyone has me broken
Be yourself my man, my biggest piece of advice. Don't feel pressured to make friends right off the bat. Find friends that share common interests and goals (have the same major, looking to go into the same career field, etc).

Just be confident in yourself my man. Not many people have the opportunity to go to college, make the most of it my nig!
 
 
Challenging myself to be social more but i don't know how

How do you meet people at college

My many flaws, guess why i can't find happiness

narcissistic but castdown by everyone has me broken
Join a club or sign up for some intramurals if you have any interest in sports. There are different leagues for different skills levels so don't sweat it.

In terms of just becoming more comfortable try and engage those next to you in some light conversation which shouldn't be too hard. Just a comment or question here or there about the class itself is very casual.
 
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Update

Gotta start the next semester in the winter
Since I didn't meet the deadline :{

In the meantime I'll go back on the job hunt since I have wheels and doin small time gigs with my cousin
 
Update

Gotta start the next semester in the winter
Since I didn't meet the deadline :{

In the meantime I'll go back on the job hunt since I have wheels and doin small time gigs with my cousin

This coming winter, as in early 2015?

Got dem wheels doe, that's wassup :hat...I forgot how that feels.

Forward progress, brodie...even if things don't happen as fast as you may like at times, that don't mean that they aren't closer to coming to fruition. I know you'll be more than ready to handle your biz when the time comes my man. :smokin
 
It's tough waking up most mornings and convincing yourself that you need a reason to not kill yourself.



Most of the time there's a good reason for me to get going each day. A lot of the time it might be something as small as "I get to spend time with so-and-so today. That makes today worth it" but when that reason falls through it's hard not to hit the bottom really hard.

IDK maybe I place too much value on other people and their relationships with me? I find myself disappointed in others and in myself on the daily. It's grating and leaves me with a lot of sadness :/
 
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