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Before we get started, let me just say i already know. smh
Aiight from the top. Fellas im trippin. Im stuck right now between what i know is right, what i know is wrong and what my selfish self wants.
Ive been in a relationship with my chick for a while now, a little over 6 years. We stay together and have a child. Its been bumpy for a couple years now at times we probably both would have split if we didnt have a child we want to raise together. Sometimes things are good and she is probably my closest friend despite everything.
Here is where things get complicated. A little over a year ago during a time where we had said some really hurtful things to one another i met this little bad one and she was throwing it at me and i caved in. Went to work on her tough and what was supposed to be just a once or twice side thing turned into something a lot more regular. Side chick always knew she was a side chick and for a while it was no issue other then my own guilt.
Shorty started catching feelings eventually and i tried to curb her, only to find myself texting her when i was drunk anyways. Long story short the feelings ended up being mutual. I couldnt shake her, or i didnt want to shake her.
All the things i didnt like about my chick, this chick seemed to excel at. My chick is lazy, and she thinks just cuz she is attractive that life is sweet, and still thinks she is a princess. Side chick is a go getter, pays for **** has two good paying jobs.
The problem im really stuck on is that i think i want to be with the sidechick now. I feel like my original relationship i have sabotaged and i feel like a pos thinking about how hurt my chick would be if she knew.
I justify it to myself because i told her that if she didnt change i was gonna end up doing this but thats just a cop out.
What would you do? Sometimes i think i should just change my number and force the end with the side girl but i never can bring myself to do it cuz i legit caught feelings.
No part of my rational self thinks i should leave my family for the sidechick but my heart is pulling me that way.
Aiight from the top. Fellas im trippin. Im stuck right now between what i know is right, what i know is wrong and what my selfish self wants.
Ive been in a relationship with my chick for a while now, a little over 6 years. We stay together and have a child. Its been bumpy for a couple years now at times we probably both would have split if we didnt have a child we want to raise together. Sometimes things are good and she is probably my closest friend despite everything.
Here is where things get complicated. A little over a year ago during a time where we had said some really hurtful things to one another i met this little bad one and she was throwing it at me and i caved in. Went to work on her tough and what was supposed to be just a once or twice side thing turned into something a lot more regular. Side chick always knew she was a side chick and for a while it was no issue other then my own guilt.
Shorty started catching feelings eventually and i tried to curb her, only to find myself texting her when i was drunk anyways. Long story short the feelings ended up being mutual. I couldnt shake her, or i didnt want to shake her.
All the things i didnt like about my chick, this chick seemed to excel at. My chick is lazy, and she thinks just cuz she is attractive that life is sweet, and still thinks she is a princess. Side chick is a go getter, pays for **** has two good paying jobs.
The problem im really stuck on is that i think i want to be with the sidechick now. I feel like my original relationship i have sabotaged and i feel like a pos thinking about how hurt my chick would be if she knew.
I justify it to myself because i told her that if she didnt change i was gonna end up doing this but thats just a cop out.
What would you do? Sometimes i think i should just change my number and force the end with the side girl but i never can bring myself to do it cuz i legit caught feelings.
No part of my rational self thinks i should leave my family for the sidechick but my heart is pulling me that way.