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I'll put it to you like this... I know my demons. They can't sneak up on me. Today is just another day. I deal with the issues of"me-ness" all the time. Like I said, this ain't new...Am I gonna be aight? Hopefully.Originally Posted by JayHood23
DW you gonna be aight homie? I'm concerned
Aight fam, its good that you acknowledge it, it makes it easier to deal with as opposed to suppressing the issue.Originally Posted by DearWinter219
I'll put it to you like this... I know my demons. They can't sneak up on me. Today is just another day. I deal with the issues of "me-ness" all the time. Like I said, this ain't new...Am I gonna be aight? Hopefully.Originally Posted by JayHood23
DW you gonna be aight homie? I'm concerned
what good does it do to be fully aware of your sliding sanity? If you ask me, it's more of a curse than a blessing. I won't even besurprised if/when I do something stupid and ruin my life which kinda takes the joy out of living up until that point.Originally Posted by JayHood23
Aight fam, its good that you acknowledge it, it makes it easier to deal with as opposed to suppressing the issue.Originally Posted by DearWinter219
I'll put it to you like this... I know my demons. They can't sneak up on me. Today is just another day. I deal with the issues of "me-ness" all the time. Like I said, this ain't new...Am I gonna be aight? Hopefully.Originally Posted by JayHood23
DW you gonna be aight homie? I'm concerned
DearWinter219 wrote:
JayHood23 wrote:
DW you gonna be aight homie? I'm concerned
I'll put it to you like this... I know my demons. They can't sneak up on me. Today is just another day. I deal with the issues of "me-ness" all the time. Like I said, this ain't new...Am I gonna be aight? Hopefully.
i relate to a lot of the things u have been sayin in this thread. its all a struggle my brother. the most epic battle you will ever fight in your life will beagainst yourself. it is also a reoccurring battle that may never truly have a conclusion. i used to have, and sometimes still have, thoughts of suicide on adaily basis. u jus have to let those thoughts pass and continue on with the day. nothing stays the same forever. tomorro can be the day your mind and heartchanges for the better, and if not then jus keep on trucking. in reality you have nothing to lose and everything to gain. yourself......
3 totally conflicting things, damn thas rough dude.....Originally Posted by So4i5
- I just dropped a female that gave me everything. I feel like an %+# but I just didn't see myself with her.
- I'm finally over my ex. She was coldhearted towards me but I couldn't help but wanna be with her. I know I simped but I learned my lesson.
- I think I'm in love with a female. I know she feels the same. We've talked before but I always ditched her for other girls. I wanna do it right this time.
I'll put it to you like this... I know my demons. They can't sneak up on me. Today is just another day. I deal with the issues of "me-ness" all the time. Like I said, this ain't new...Am I gonna be aight? Hopefully.Originally Posted by NJstress03
DearWinter219 wrote:
JayHood23 wrote:
DW you gonna be aight homie? I'm concerned
Originally Posted by DearWinter219
I'll put it to you like this... I know my demons. They can't sneak up on me. Today is just another day. I deal with the issues of "me-ness" all the time. Like I said, this ain't new...Am I gonna be aight? Hopefully.Originally Posted by NJstress03
DearWinter219 wrote:
JayHood23 wrote:
DW you gonna be aight homie? I'm concerned
DearWinter219 wrote:
I'll put it to you like this... I know my demons. They can't sneak up on me. Today is just another day. I deal with the issues of "me-ness" all the time. Like I said, this ain't new...Am I gonna be aight? Hopefully.Originally Posted by NJstress03
DearWinter219 wrote:
JayHood23 wrote:
DW you gonna be aight homie? I'm concerned
i relate to a lot of the things u have been sayin in this thread. its all a struggle my brother. the most epic battle you will ever fight in your life will be against yourself. it is also a reoccurring battle that may never truly have a conclusion. i used to have, and sometimes still have, thoughts of suicide on a daily basis. u jus have to let those thoughts pass and continue on with the day. nothing stays the same forever. tomorro can be the day your mind and heart changes for the better, and if not then jus keep on trucking. in reality you have nothing to lose and everything to gain. yourself......
It happened the very second I watched my mother die. I knew I couldn't go back to "normal". My :normal" was 18 years of pretty decent living despite my troubled mind. Basically the way I see it, as a kid I tricked myself into expecting a smoother ride in life. Parents don't die, dreams don't shatter, etc. So now I have to spend the next 60 or so years un-tricking myself. My idea of normal was a facade, a temporary one at that. I'm not crazy. I'm just not normal anymore. There never was a normal to begin with. I know that a day is only 24 hours. In that 24 hours, there are several 60 minute intervals. Inside of those intervals, are seconds. I live life one second at a time. I'll be old and gray (or dead) before I know it. Nothing can stop that. No use being down about it. It'll be a googolplex of seconds before I see mom again and I know it. So I live. I live thoroughly, honestly, realistically and openly in everything I say and do. Why not? Ain't +++$ else to do until I decay.
i see, im sorry to hear that u had to see your mom die. i dunt know how that feels but i can only imagine. i understand your mind set in the sense of"normal." there is no such thing as normal in my mind as well. just existance. as for dreams n such, ppl like me and you know 1st hand they are bornn they die. but you gotta do what you can. and yes there may be a lot of time left before you pass on but u have to think of it like this; you have only liveda fraction of what your potential time on earth is, there is so much more that can happen from here till as you said, 60 years pass. it may get better or itmay get worse. as you said u gotta take it one second at a time. hope for the best and prepare for the worst. its not about being optimistic or pessimistic.its about being realistic. i wish you luck in your future endeavors. hit me up for watever dude.
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Originally Posted by NJstress03
DearWinter219 wrote:
I'll put it to you like this... I know my demons. They can't sneak up on me. Today is just another day. I deal with the issues of "me-ness" all the time. Like I said, this ain't new...Am I gonna be aight? Hopefully.Originally Posted by NJstress03
DearWinter219 wrote:
JayHood23 wrote:
DW you gonna be aight homie? I'm concerned
DearWinter219 wrote:
Originally Posted by NJstress03
DearWinter219 wrote:
I'll put it to you like this... I know my demons. They can't sneak up on me. Today is just another day. I deal with the issues of "me-ness" all the time. Like I said, this ain't new...Am I gonna be aight? Hopefully.Originally Posted by NJstress03
DearWinter219 wrote:
JayHood23 wrote:
DW you gonna be aight homie? I'm concerned
i relate to a lot of the things u have been sayin in this thread. its all a struggle my brother. the most epic battle you will ever fight in your life will be against yourself. it is also a reoccurring battle that may never truly have a conclusion. i used to have, and sometimes still have, thoughts of suicide on a daily basis. u jus have to let those thoughts pass and continue on with the day. nothing stays the same forever. tomorro can be the day your mind and heart changes for the better, and if not then jus keep on trucking. in reality you have nothing to lose and everything to gain. yourself......
It happened the very second I watched my mother die. I knew I couldn't go back to "normal". My :normal" was 18 years of pretty decent living despite my troubled mind. Basically the way I see it, as a kid I tricked myself into expecting a smoother ride in life. Parents don't die, dreams don't shatter, etc. So now I have to spend the next 60 or so years un-tricking myself. My idea of normal was a facade, a temporary one at that. I'm not crazy. I'm just not normal anymore. There never was a normal to begin with. I know that a day is only 24 hours. In that 24 hours, there are several 60 minute intervals. Inside of those intervals, are seconds. I live life one second at a time. I'll be old and gray (or dead) before I know it. Nothing can stop that. No use being down about it. It'll be a googolplex of seconds before I see mom again and I know it. So I live. I live thoroughly, honestly, realistically and openly in everything I say and do. Why not? Ain't +++$ else to do until I decay.
i see, im sorry to hear that u had to see your mom die. i dunt know how that feels but i can only imagine. i understand your mind set in the sense of "normal." there is no such thing as normal in my mind as well. just existance. as for dreams n such, ppl like me and you know 1st hand they are born n they die. but you gotta do what you can. and yes there may be a lot of time left before you pass on but u have to think of it like this; you have only lived a fraction of what your potential time on earth is, there is so much more that can happen from here till as you said, 60 years pass. it may get better or it may get worse. as you said u gotta take it one second at a time. hope for the best and prepare for the worst. its not about being optimistic or pessimistic. its about being realistic. i wish you luck in your future endeavors. hit me up for watever dude.
'Preciate it bro. Now you see why they call me Young Rilla and not just Young. I'll tell you this though, there is no imagining it. I tried. I tried to prepare for it. She was terminal for months. hen it happens..... everything you thought you were ready for overwhelms you. There is no bracing yourself...KNOW that. if you're gonna prepare, then prepare to be unprepared completely. Then remember this conversation. I don't care if it's 30 years from now. These few sentences will help. Knowing that you expected you were gonna be blindsided completely is better than any other realization IMO. You get to be right about something, in control to a degree. You'll need that.
you are absolutely right my friend, sometimes the best preparation is preparing to be unprepared. simply bracing yourself the best you can. youseem like a smart dude, im sure you will be ok. let the pain from the past enlighten you for the future that is ahead of you. and try venting once ina while(like you did today). i know sometimes venting gives off that feeling of being weak but in reality it gives you strength. BTW, im known as j-stress and that isalso for a reason.stay up tho ma dude.
It happened the very second I watched my mother die. I knew I couldn't go back to "normal". My :normal" was 18 years of pretty decent living despite my troubled mind. Basically the way I see it, as a kid I tricked myself into expecting a smoother ride in life. Parents don't die, dreams don't shatter, etc. So now I have to spend the next 60 or so years un-tricking myself. My idea of normal was a facade, a temporary one at that. I'm not crazy. I'm just not normal anymore. There never was a normal to begin with. I know that a day is only 24 hours. In that 24 hours, there are several 60 minute intervals. Inside of those intervals, are seconds. I live life one second at a time. I'll be old and gray (or dead) before I know it. Nothing can stop that. No use being down about it. It'll be a googolplex of seconds before I see mom again and I know it. So I live. I live thoroughly, honestly, realistically and openly in everything I say and do. Why not? Ain't +++$ else to do until I decay.Originally Posted by JayHood23
Originally Posted by DearWinter219
I'll put it to you like this... I know my demons. They can't sneak up on me. Today is just another day. I deal with the issues of "me-ness" all the time. Like I said, this ain't new...Am I gonna be aight? Hopefully.Originally Posted by NJstress03
DearWinter219 wrote:
JayHood23 wrote:
DW you gonna be aight homie? I'm concerned
i relate to a lot of the things u have been sayin in this thread. its all a struggle my brother. the most epic battle you will ever fight in your life will be against yourself. it is also a reoccurring battle that may never truly have a conclusion. i used to have, and sometimes still have, thoughts of suicide on a daily basis. u jus have to let those thoughts pass and continue on with the day. nothing stays the same forever. tomorro can be the day your mind and heart changes for the better, and if not then jus keep on trucking. in reality you have nothing to lose and everything to gain. yourself......
I can relate to that, worst feeling ever watching the woman that will love you unconditionally and brought you here pass away. I could remember it like it was yesterdayOriginally Posted by Keithahundred
It happened the very second I watched my mother die. I knew I couldn't go back to "normal". My :normal" was 18 years of pretty decent living despite my troubled mind. Basically the way I see it, as a kid I tricked myself into expecting a smoother ride in life. Parents don't die, dreams don't shatter, etc. So now I have to spend the next 60 or so years un-tricking myself. My idea of normal was a facade, a temporary one at that. I'm not crazy. I'm just not normal anymore. There never was a normal to begin with. I know that a day is only 24 hours. In that 24 hours, there are several 60 minute intervals. Inside of those intervals, are seconds. I live life one second at a time. I'll be old and gray (or dead) before I know it. Nothing can stop that. No use being down about it. It'll be a googolplex of seconds before I see mom again and I know it. So I live. I live thoroughly, honestly, realistically and openly in everything I say and do. Why not? Ain't +++$ else to do until I decay.Originally Posted by JayHood23
Originally Posted by DearWinter219
I'll put it to you like this... I know my demons. They can't sneak up on me. Today is just another day. I deal with the issues of "me-ness" all the time. Like I said, this ain't new...Am I gonna be aight? Hopefully.Originally Posted by NJstress03
DearWinter219 wrote:
JayHood23 wrote:
DW you gonna be aight homie? I'm concerned
i relate to a lot of the things u have been sayin in this thread. its all a struggle my brother. the most epic battle you will ever fight in your life will be against yourself. it is also a reoccurring battle that may never truly have a conclusion. i used to have, and sometimes still have, thoughts of suicide on a daily basis. u jus have to let those thoughts pass and continue on with the day. nothing stays the same forever. tomorro can be the day your mind and heart changes for the better, and if not then jus keep on trucking. in reality you have nothing to lose and everything to gain. yourself......