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So my brother Tim has been in Maine for the past 14 months in a religious program. While there he became a born again Christian. Religion was never my thing but Im for whatever it takes to find god. You see the reason he was in Maine was because he had problems with drugs. He was living homeless in camden NJ, And Atlantic city. He did some slimy **** and my father said his only alternative is die on the street or go to Maine. He chose Maine. While living there I found out he was training to become a mentor for the younger kids dealing with addiction, and also all the amazing things he did while out there.
Fast forward to last week, He decided to come home to see family and stay at home for 2 weeks. WOW I have never seen him so healthy. The 3 days we spent together we played some spades , casino, had a BBQ and we even cleaned my own yard and I sat and watched him BEAST it, power washing, mowing, and chopping branches down. I saw he started to take his will back.
the first day he was asking me for new ports and sneaking away, since he quit for 14 months, I am seeing the progression of the disease of addiction and it started with the cigs. Then one night he went to the bar and had a few drinks , no big deal right? At least not to normal people. I think he was uncomfortable being around the same old stuff that was going on YEARS AGO. People still getting high , nothing ever changes. I had a amazing 3 days with my brother. On that 4th day, Memorial Day, I woke up and found my brother, dead. He overdosed. He found some knuckleheads that would get him what he wanted. Heroin. What I saw I do not want to describe, but it looked like a crime scene. THE progression is so serious for addicts, as it went from sneaking cigs, to drinking, to heroin. I don't know why god took him or why he chose to do what he did. I know who got him the stuff but that assault charge WILL NOT help my family. I have to be strong, as I'm the only son now . I just needed to vent.... The funeral is tommorow, as some of you might know, I had my problems with drugs, **** me and my brother used together back in the day. I think my brother wouldn't want me to be loaded at his funeral, as I have 6 months clean, being clean at his funeral can be my biggest honor.
Fast forward to last week, He decided to come home to see family and stay at home for 2 weeks. WOW I have never seen him so healthy. The 3 days we spent together we played some spades , casino, had a BBQ and we even cleaned my own yard and I sat and watched him BEAST it, power washing, mowing, and chopping branches down. I saw he started to take his will back.
the first day he was asking me for new ports and sneaking away, since he quit for 14 months, I am seeing the progression of the disease of addiction and it started with the cigs. Then one night he went to the bar and had a few drinks , no big deal right? At least not to normal people. I think he was uncomfortable being around the same old stuff that was going on YEARS AGO. People still getting high , nothing ever changes. I had a amazing 3 days with my brother. On that 4th day, Memorial Day, I woke up and found my brother, dead. He overdosed. He found some knuckleheads that would get him what he wanted. Heroin. What I saw I do not want to describe, but it looked like a crime scene. THE progression is so serious for addicts, as it went from sneaking cigs, to drinking, to heroin. I don't know why god took him or why he chose to do what he did. I know who got him the stuff but that assault charge WILL NOT help my family. I have to be strong, as I'm the only son now . I just needed to vent.... The funeral is tommorow, as some of you might know, I had my problems with drugs, **** me and my brother used together back in the day. I think my brother wouldn't want me to be loaded at his funeral, as I have 6 months clean, being clean at his funeral can be my biggest honor.
prayers go out to you and your family.
