Yeah i need to work on giving people chances. Once the pursuit is over i tend to lose interest. But girls my age seem to be jaded/broken/bitter in some way. Cheated on by an ex, abused by an ex. Something that means you are starting from under ground and have to dig your way up to surface level before even considering a healthy relationship. The younger girls are still kinda in that party phase and want you to be more off standing and for lack of better word "mysterious". They are all used to guys blowing them up and being super aggressive about it. So when you lay back it tends to work out better....but their mental capacity for a relationship is extremely limited. Because again you have to lay ground work to make them realize you > fireball shots dancing on random dudes getting tons of attention and numbers and texts.
I should just have a book with chapters named after women. Every chapter will be the story of what happened with that girl. But i ramble too much and get off topic really easily and just run with rants
my book would be so disorganized