I'd also like to add this if it helps anyone out.
I'll be 29 tomorrow and until a few months ago I "thought" I was happy.
Nice truck, paying job, girl, money etc.
Crash my truck, broke up with my girl and job got extremely tiring.
Im in th process in enrolling back to school and plan on quitting my current job.
My eyes opened and I realized I was making everyone around me happy not me.
Took 29 years to realize I only got 1 life
It's yours and yours only.
Once you clear your head of the worlds views and materials, I swear to you, you'll never feel more happy and free.
Damn,
Now that is a stimulating post. just made
Me think long and hard about what I'm focusing on right now. Thanks man.
And for those who think I'm complaining that I'm miserable, far from it. I apologize if I came off that way.
Rather than being unhappy or ungrateful, the key word I meant to convey was feeling unfulfilled. I'm doing what a man does, work hard, save money, etc. grateful for the job opportunity because it helped me start digging out of a financial hole.
Just dont feel good about myself on weekdays. I don't feel sorry for myself, I've been to the Middle East... I've seen what relatives live off of, I see the hustle on the streets, I see the filth some people have to live in.
I guess I just want to feel like I'm living a more fulfilling life on weekdays than just working to make a paycheck.
And I think some of you have made me realize I can focus on giving with my off time instead of thinking about what can make my own personal days better, and in the long run that can make me feel more fulfilled than any thing I could do for myself.
I truly must find a way to give back to others. I think it's the biggest aspect missing from my life. I think a daily reminder of how little some have and how much more I can give might just do the trick.
I just gotta find a balance like you guys have said, so I can have the time/energy/money to take care of my family/girl, enjoy life, and give back to the needy as well.
I really gotta sit down soon and evaluate a new game plan. Maybe find a job with a nonprofit or something less robotic for a start. Then find some creative way for me to give back.
You guys are really helping a lot, just want ya'll to know that. Even the people with the cold blooded posts, need that too. It all whips my mind into shape.
Thanks NT
