brkfstchampions
a lot of good advice has already been sent your way.
So, I'd like to offer you something from a difference to get played.
Ask yourself why you let yourself be abused in this way?
Try to delve into and really dig for a reason that explains why you would let this happen.
Yes I say "let", because like 703 said-- how did you not see the signs?
I would argue that you did see the signs, and we're sure as sure can be without visual evidence.
Ask yourself is this type of relationship the kind that you want in the future?
And question the possibility that you put yourself through this pain, subconsciously bc of your self worth.
"We accept the love we think we deserve."
and yes, mgrand said it best
but
spizike231
, this was the most glaring part of your post "My mind is over it. But my heart isn't."
you've conditioned yourself over the years quite well by using your intelligence almost as a defense mechanism
not sure how to explain it but, reading it all, you remind me of me
and I gotta tell you
It's great to be intelligent and have options with women (clearly you do from your behavior)
but ask yourself is a life that revolves around your worth living
When it's all said and done do you want to say "I never listened to my heart."?
Are you okay with that? iDK about you, but I wouldn't be.
You seem to me to be a man of principles.
I would offer this:
"You can either be right, or you can be happy."
I would bet you have things you're ashamed of on your phone.
that may be besides the point, maybe not, just wanted to see if I'm right, honestly
To tell the truth though? In the "phone checking argument" y'all had... both of you were right.
She went into that game with the intention of testing you to see your reaction
Probably told herself- "if he says no , then I know for a fact he's doing something he's guilty about."
And not only did you deny her , but you were adamant about not letting her see.
So, she stuck to her guns of - " he must be hiding something!"
And playing the number game, you really cant blame her. Because probability wise? Most of the time, she'd be correct in her assumption of guilt. So yes she's right.
And you're right. You can't be in a relationship without trust.
But you're both just so goddamn stubborn.
I don't have an answer, and I'm attempting with only one post to deduce from
but if I can speculate
It seems like she's ALL about you, and you want distance. You want options. Maybe a little more freedom.
If so, have a talk about that, that's my advice for you my friend. have a COMPLETELY honest nothing held back conversation with her
(Again , I'm going off my hunch that whether you're "cheating" or not-- I'd bet money there's stuff on your phone you don't want her to see).
Bc you say you want trust right? The ever-elusive always-important TRUST.
Then y'all need to get EVERYTHING out in the open.
because it's within your every right as a human being (even more so as a man) to look around, see temptation, dip your toes in, cannonball into the deep end, or run home and none of it matters unless it's YOUR decision.
So do what the **** you wanna do
lolcomin
However, the girl I'm seeing now is here and up until I few weeks ago she was gung-ho ready to move for me when I finished, and now she's talking about how she can't be away from her family and she doesn't think she can do it 
i would of deaded that with the quickness after reading your first paragraph...
