Man I'm back here to let some emotions out .. got no one to go to because this is embarrasing for my boys, family and friends to know about.. so here goes nothing my NT family.
So to continue my previous post, but let me take it back a few months and start from the beginning this time.
So we're dating for a few months and she goes out A LOT, hangs with A LOT of other guys, but you can't trip in a beginning of relationship, you have to be that cool guy that's not jealous. So she have fun and I'm like cool, enjoy yourself and have fun babe. I TRUSTED HER.
So one night a few months back, she tells me about this "homie" she kicks it with, said he's real fun to kick it with and then their good friends. Cool. I meet the cat one time, shake his hand, convo with him, buy him a drink. Respect that. One day me and her supposed to meet at the mall to cop my nephew a birthday gift, I call her, no answer .. hmmm .. she calls back and tells me she just got to the mall, she was with "homie" hanging out with him. Okayyyyy .. so you didn't pick up? Ehh, don't think anything of it bro, just let it go. So she goes out with him and friends that night and doesn't come home. Next morning goes by, no text, no call, her phone goes to voicemail. I show up to her job to bring her lunch, she's NOT there. She didn't show up to work. Now its like 5 PM, the day of my nephew's bday and she text me finally saying, sorry phone been dead, I'll call you in a sec. Hours go by and she still haven't called back. Show's up to my nephew bday like everything is all kosher. I'm drunk and trip, kick her out of my house and the next day I apologize for making a scene and I triped out and let's continue our relationship.
Weeks go by. I'm being a gentleman, taking her out, buying her EXPENSIVE gifts, got us Cabo tickets for August, bought her ACL tickets for October, and I bought her Vegas tickets the day of this event .. so that night she goes out with friends and "homie" - oh forgot to even mention, her sister (that also has a boyfriend) had already slept with "homie" and continues to mess with "homie" when she's drunk. So they all go out and she doesn't come home and slept at "homies" apt with friends because they were drunk. I ignore it, nothing happend right, she just stayed there because she was drunk and that's better then drinking and driving. I BOUGHT HER VEGAS TICKETS THAT MORNING. Days past and she invites me out to meet her at the club, I show up with my boy and she shows up with "homie", they rode together. I shake his hand, give her a hug and she's nowhere to found after a few mins so me and my boy decideds to leave. blah blah blah.
So days go by, she's sleeping at my house, I couldn't sleep and just being a punk, I went through her phone. Went through the text of her and "homie" - it was like starring down a barrel of a gun and watching someone slowly pull the trigger. It was text of her saying, hope she didn't moan so loud that night and hope no one in the house heard (the day that I bought her Vegas tickets), he told her not to wear panties tonight when they meet up for a mutual friends wedding. I wake up and just calmly tell her to leave my house, told her I know she messing with "homie" and it's over. SHE BLOWS UP MY PHONE, tells me she LOVES ME, made a meaningless mistake, it was that one time, their just friends and will do anything to not lose me. They didn't "Do it", it was just messing around. Her bff text me too, apologizing for her and saying she really loves me and to give her a chance.
I go on NT, make a simple post that I caught her cheating and need to move on. Yall tell me to leave her alone. I DON'T LISTEN AND CAVED IN.
Took her back, two weeks go by and we're good, go on dates, in love, I buy her more expensive gifts and show her I'm a good dude and worth it. Mind you, I have females throwing themselves at me but I have them on mute because I want to focus on her. Two weeks, since I caught her with "homie" and then she has the nerves to post a pic on IG of her, 2 other friend and "homie" a BIG pic, "homie" face is plaster on this post. I text her like "YO thats cute, knowing I don't like "homie" you still post a pic of him" She tells me she didn't think anything of it, its an old pic she thought was funny, and she's sorry, she'll take it down. And how do I know since I do not have IG, I told her I saw it on my sister's IG and she said she didn't think I would see it, didn't think any harm would come out of it. I'm like so it's ok since you thought I wouldn't find out, blah blah blah.. She tells me she loves me and why is that not enough and why do I trip about him. I try to tell her its a respect thing, I do not want to be reminded of "homie" ever. She doesn't want to talk about it and goes out that night (this happened Tuesday). Doesn't come home and I'm assuming she slept at "homie" apt again. We were supposed to have lunch yesterday (Wednesday), no morning text, nothing, I'm sitting her litearlly waiting, hungry at work, but just being patient. Noon comes, and She text, "Good morning" - I text "Good morning" back. An hour goes by and she texts me "LOL, sorry I just ate lunch, I'm with friends" .. and nothing else. Knowing we're supposed to have lunch. So I'm like eff it! Don't respond or give her my stress. The day goes by and at night I kick it with my boys and friends. She texted me like - why do we argue so much - I'm like, I only argue cuz you do this stuff to get upset, not like I pick fights with you for no reason or fun. -- I'm with my friends and some reason this "homie" comes up and I'm sitting there quiet listening (they don't know that me and her been dating for like almost 6 months now) and goes "yo "homie" ran thru both of them, her and her sister, and now got them doing things for him lol he got it like that, those sisters want to be in the scene and he working them". I'm sitting there speechless, like WOW!
Anyways she then text me the rest of the night, that I STRESS HER, I MAKE HER UNHAPPY, I TRIP TOO MUCH. I'm like WHOA! WHAT?! YOU STRESS ME OUT! I haven't done anything wrong. We text back and forth, I try to talk to her in person but she doesn't want to meet up in person. So just tells me that I'm immature and to leave her alone, I'm like ok, well guess it's that then.
So now next morning, I'm on NT spilling my guts to yall. Feels better. Man she did ya boy dirty and I have no one to BLAME BUT MY DUMB SELF. All the signs were there and I chose to let her do this to me, I let her stress me, I let her play me, I let her get to my emotions. LOL. I'm the big dummy. Welp that is all fellas. That is my confession. Thank you for tunning in and reading this long post. Have a great day fellas.