Confessions

 
I think i'm getting over my anxiety, 

I went to meet with a CEO of a local company, never met him before, and everything came effortlessly. No sweating, no difficult breathing, no twitching, the convo rolled on without trouble
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Today will be 7 years since my sis passed on. Will probably be on my mind at work, but I think I'll be fine. Probably gonna sip on this henn with my younger sis later today at the cemetery. Life has changed a lot since then.

NT, you're all some good brothers.

Keep your head up. God bless.
 
Today will be 7 years since my sis passed on. Will probably be on my mind at work, but I think I'll be fine. Probably gonna sip on this henn with my younger sis later today at the cemetery. Life has changed a lot since then.

NT, you're all some good brothers.

Stay up fam.. Your in my prayers..
 
Ight, been busy doing nothing, but here's the story of Joe Budden & his thot adventures. I even hooked it up with some pictures I've edited, although I'm not fond of seeing Joe B**** and Nasty Nas stunt double  in my pictures whenever I go back to them.

So if any of you ever watched that new Love & Hip Hop, or have a girl/side chick/side chick of a side chick that watched it around you, you know about these two. For those that don't know, I worked at Sin City Cabaret for an extended period of time. I've seen a lot of celebs come, who wanted us to prevent pictures being taken of them, even though no one in the club knew who they were (Ahem -- Birdman aka Chris Anderson, who everyone thought was Machine Gun Kelly with a growth spurt)

If you ever watched Cheah201 (Buddens Youtube), you'll know he has a fetish for Sin City, and he was frequently there, at least 2-3x a month when I worked there. "Eastside Crackhead" (Who Budden filmed freestyling) was there every day. It was weird, me being excited to meet a basehead I've seen all over Youtube. Anyways, to give background information, this is the *** that Budden saved and put on the show:

Yup, that's Cory from That's so Raven!

Oh wait....That's not Cory. My bad. I thought Cory In The House was working at Sin City this whole time. I was wondering why he blocked me when I tweeted him and asked him if he was working the night shift. No one (maybe waitresses, they were basic **** too) liked Cory. She was arrogant, ignorant, and looked like Nas with a fat, fake ***. She tried to get me fired cause I let some ***** take a picture of her, even though she posts the same pics fans take of her on her IG. That's *** logic, though. I wish I put hot sauce on my hand and slapped that bald head.

Anyways, Budden loves Hookahs and Spanish women with fake bodies. He was cool, though, to an extent. Whenever he saw me he'd give me a pound or whatever and then go to VIP. Then when strippers would come by he would say "Hello" like he was approaching an actual woman who wasn't doing something strange for a little piece of change. Whenever he came through, he was always talking to Nya (Cory in the house). Always saw them caking together, cuddling, talking, tricking, and anything else that was legal in Sin City. So I'm on WSHH and I saw someone that looked familiar in the thumbnail. It was Cory, and apparently she was on the new season and LNHH.

That's what she told Joe in Sin City after a hard 3 hour shift, and Joe said "FEAR NOT, I WILL SAVE YOU MARIO CHALMERS!" and hooked her up. Everyone put two and two together and realized the reason she went from stripper to a "Reality show" out of the blue. Budden put her on, and I'm assuming she had to suck some good **** for him to go all out for Q-Tip. Then she decided to take advantage of her 15mins and become a "rapper". She opened up for Kendrick Lamar and a couple of other industry cats and people actually thought it was her talent and fame that got her that high, that quick. Again, Joe Budden's workings, making sure his baby daddy open up for the best.

Anyone remember that scene where her and Mena were supposedly "fighting" in Sin City? Completely made up.

1. This *** doesn't work during the day, let alone dancing when the club is barely open and no one is barely in there. I used to always see her coming in after 1am on Weekends, usually. She NEVER works during the day.

2. They paid Sin City, and I wish I was a part of the cut, LOL, but they obviously cut some deal with the owner to get that scene down in there

3. That **** was just fake.

That whole show is fake, especially any scenes with her or Sin City.  Joe Budden saved this ***, and that's not the first or last *** he saved, we all saw what happened to Tahiry
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And it's nothing personal to Joe, but he saved a *** that tried to get me fired, and If I got fired I would've lost my new crib I just moved into. I actually got suspended for that, because, you know, strippers are always right when it comes to a strip club. Even if the owner, Gus Drakopoulos caught cases for sucking waitresses toes and offering gifts and jobs in exchange for sex. So imma expose one.

Stop saving ****, Joe. You don't have to do this.
 
Today will be 7 years since my sis passed on. Will probably be on my mind at work, but I think I'll be fine. Probably gonna sip on this henn with my younger sis later today at the cemetery. Life has changed a lot since then.

NT, you're all some good brothers.
Bro died in 2010 a week before starting college, know how you feel.
 
Today will be 7 years since my sis passed on. Will probably be on my mind at work, but I think I'll be fine. Probably gonna sip on this henn with my younger sis later today at the cemetery. Life has changed a lot since then.

NT, you're all some good brothers.

She's in a better place bro! I understand how you feel though. I lost my father last January like a week before I had to return to school for my spring semester. He basically died in my arms because he was having a stroke. By the time he was rushed to the hospital he was brain dead and paralyzed. Since I was his only son it was my call to pull the plug or not. After weighting out all our opinion I was forced to pull it. Probably will never get over it. Me and my father birthdays and one day apart and we always celebrated together so my birthdays will never be the same anymore. But keep your head up bro and remember all the good times.
 
Today will be 7 years since my sis passed on. Will probably be on my mind at work, but I think I'll be fine. Probably gonna sip on this henn with my younger sis later today at the cemetery. Life has changed a lot since then.

NT, you're all some good brothers.
Stay up man. Keep your head up.
 
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I appreciate it brothas. Just got back from visiting, finished a small bottle of henn with my lil sister and talked a lot of stuff, past and future. Stuff like that really brings us closer as a family.

Bro died in 2010 a week before starting college, know how you feel.
Sorry to hear about that my dood. It will get better, in time. Stay up fam!

She's in a better place bro! I understand how you feel though. I lost my father last January like a week before I had to return to school for my spring semester. He basically died in my arms because he was having a stroke. By the time he was rushed to the hospital he was brain dead and paralyzed. Since I was his only son it was my call to pull the plug or not. After weighting out all our opinion I was forced to pull it. Probably will never get over it. Me and my father birthdays and one day apart and we always celebrated together so my birthdays will never be the same anymore. But keep your head up bro and remember all the good times.
I'm sorry my dood. You know what makes us connect? My sister died from a stroke too, and eventually became brain dead until we let her pass on.. RIP to your pops and definitely it's all about the good times.
 
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I appreciate it brothas. Just got back from visiting, finished a small bottle of henn with my lil sister and talked a lot of stuff, past and future. Stuff like that really brings us closer as a family.
Sorry to hear about that my dood. It will get better, in time. Stay up fam!
I'm sorry my dood. You know what makes us connect? My sister died from a stroke too, and eventually became brain dead until we let her pass on.. RIP to your pops and definitely it's all about the good times.
Stay up my dude, cant say I feel your pain because I have yet to experience any thing that impacting thus far. Regardless, hope your in a better place now, for you and your sister.

That Henny will be there for you man but don't let that be the only reason why you talk about the situation. We here and pm's are always open.
 
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-Tomorrow is my last day at my job
-I am making HUGE changes in my life
-I'm kind of sad
-I know that everything I am doing is for my best. One big choice in particular that's really hard to go through with.
 
Going after a different job? Or going back to school? I just did the same thing a year ago, quit my career and went back to school.
 
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Stay up my dude, cant say I feel your pain because I have yet to experience any thing that impacting thus far. Regardless, hope your in a better place now, for you and your sister.


That Henny will be there for you man but don't let that be the only reason why you talk about the situation. We here and pm's are always open.

I'm definitely in a better spot now man. I know I shouldn't rely on alcohol, but that was just for the occasion, plus me and my sister don't drink together that much. Yesterday was different though, it was the first time I didn't cry. It's like I knew things were headed the right direction for us. And I appreciate it fam, same to you.

bendover bendover someone once told me not to dwell on the past. It's the only way we'll be able to keep moving forward.
 
damn, my best friend forgave me. 5 years later, chemistry never died down one bit. conversations for days. As blessed I am that he let me back into his life, I can't help but feel like a terrible person after he explained to me why he became distant. All in all, so thankful that I get a second chance. These kind of people only come of often in a lifetime.
 
damn, my best friend forgave me. 5 years later, chemistry never died down one bit. conversations for days. As blessed I am that he let me back into his life, I can't help but feel like a terrible person after he explained to me why he became distant. All in all, so thankful that I get a second chance. These kind of people only come of often in a lifetime.
Prolly late on this but u mind sharing what you did?
 
I usually lurk this thread(seems like a lot of good dudes I can relate to in some form/fashion), it's nice to know I'm not the only one going through something. Even though I love my wife dearly and we have great communication, just hard to tell her everything. Get trapped in my head sometimes about the future, especially now that we are trying to have a child. Just want to be the father my dad wasnt and make sure my lil mans/daughter grows up with a strong support system and loving environment so they will never have to be scared to tell me their problems. Never thought I would be married or have kids, was in a very dark place 3 years ago but my wife has brought the best out of me but sometimes I just feel she deserves better. Being a cancer(moody as ****,lol) she knows how to roll with the punches and that's what I love about her. Plus I know she is going to be an awesome mom, no matter if we are together or not, this woman has proved so much of herself to me that I couldn't ask for anything more. Three years certainly passed by quickly and standing here on the eve of my 33 birthday, I've come along way, which I never thought I would. Sorry just needed to vent for a minute, all you dudes keep your heads up. I know it maybe dark right now but it gets better if you let it. We all have doubts,worries,concerns but you have to keep believing it will get better..
Peace..
Also that Joe "Booty" story was hilarious...
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