Confessions

So, I found out that my ex boyfriend and one of our mutual friends are dating. I knew them both for a good 8 years. No lie, I was kinda taken back when I found out about them. I didn't know how to feel for a good 5 minutes.... Mainly because our mutual friend was the person I cried to the most when he and I would fight, and when we were breaking up. 

However, at the same time, I feel like I shouldn't give two ***** either because: 

1) It’s none of my business anymore. My ex and I separated FOR GOOD in 2012.

2) My relationship with my ex was just horrible, simply put. 

3) I’ve been in a relationship with someone else for more than a year. And I love him.

I genuinely am happy for them, but I feel BETRAYED big time. It's not even jealousy on my end. It's more of.... She was the one comforted me and told me how much of a lame my ex is for cheating on me with a bunch of girls, and that I deserved so much better. She knows about his dirt with other girls when I was still in the picture......... now they're an item.

Idk, I just hope he won't hurt her like he hurt me.

I just feel like I got slapped in the face. I don't know. 
maaaaan i mean female let it go
i mean u said they were mutual friends as well so
just like u got comforted by her during the breakup
maybe he did as well
and it could be love
if so just leave it alone
seems like ur jealous a lil
he and you aint messing with each other no more
let them be happy
aint seem like they was tryna stab u in the back
just move on
 
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I really don't know what got into my last weekend, but I partied harder than I ever have. I was at an EDM camping festival and I'm not even into EDM.

The amount of substances I took was ridiculous, but I was 100% coherent the entire time and remember everything. It took me a few days to feel normal again, I swear, never again.

Laying in a hammock in the forest while on Lucy was pretty enjoyable though, still never again....
 
I really don't know what got into my last weekend, but I partied harder than I ever have. I was at an EDM camping festival and I'm not even into EDM.

The amount of substances I took was ridiculous, but I was 100% coherent the entire time and remember everything. It took me a few days to feel normal again, I swear, never again.

Laying in a hammock in the forest while on Lucy was pretty enjoyable though, still never again....

Only times I've ever enjoyed edm or dubstep have been when rolling hard...
 
Only times I've ever enjoyed edm or dubstep have been when rolling hard...

Yeah, I pretty much only went because my friend bought my ticket for me in order to force me to go :lol

I was rolling and enjoying myself, but it got to a point where I was questioning how all these people love EDM so damn much, and all of it started to sound the same. First and last time I will ever go to an EDM festival, that scene just isn't for me.
 
I'm starting to feel my depression coming on again :{
Havent had a good day in the last few months since my grandfather died, ppl just seem so fake to me now, my job has become annoying & restricting. I have no direction in life. No college, no girlfriend, crappy car. I know have somethings going for me but its just so hard to look past these negatives, these last 3 nights have just made it worst. I feel completely alone. I hate feeling like this, its some ********
 
I'm starting to feel my depression coming on again :{
Havent had a good day in the last few months since my grandfather died, ppl just seem so fake to me now, my job has become annoying & restricting. I have no direction in life. No college, no girlfriend, crappy car. I know have somethings going for me but its just so hard to look past these negatives, these last 3 nights have just made it worst. I feel completely alone. I hate feeling like this, its some ********

I've been there brotha. Don't sweat it. I've felt like I couldn't trust anyone either. Sometimes being independent and doing your own thing is good for the soul. Just take that list of negatives you got there and do whatever you can to knock them out one by one. No college? Look into going back to school. I know everyone hates school. I'm in the same spot, dreaded the thought of having to go back and finally am looking at classes for this coming fall semester. No girl? Go out and talk to some. With friends or by yourself, doesn't matter. I know it's harder said than done for some people. But sometimes you just gotta do it. Alcohol optional. I recommend going somewhere a little farther from where you live to be around all strangers and not run into anyone unless that's what you'd like. Crappy car? Since you do have a job set some money to the side to fix it up! Or buy/lease a new one. I just recently bought a new car that I've been wanting and it definitely sparked my endorphins. Plus if you knock out the car thing, it will definitely help give you more confidence to find a new girl. No one really has a direction in life unless you have an arranged marriage planned before you were born or a part of a family of doctors or lawyers that want you to follow in their foot steps or you'll be disowned. Make your own direction, your life and whatever you do is in your hands.
 
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^^^thanks & repped but most of that advice I already know but just feel like I cant do nothing about. Its like I'm stuck :{ I also hate going places by myself idk why but I like having at least somebody I'm cool with by me when I go out to places. Going out alone just feels weird to me especially if its far
 
Only times I've ever enjoyed edm or dubstep have been when rolling hard...

Yeah, I pretty much only went because my friend bought my ticket for me in order to force me to go :lol

I was rolling and enjoying myself, but it got to a point where I was questioning how all these people love EDM so damn much, and all of it started to sound the same. First and last time I will ever go to an EDM festival, that scene just isn't for me.

I'm not about that life lol... But the once or twice a year I do molly, I listen to that stuff... I don't even get it lol...
 
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I see my friends and other people worship those edm dj's. People post pics of them getting water thrown on them by their favorite dj and say it's a great honor. Weird.
 
One of my best friends is HUGE into EDM. He has those gloves with the lights on them and does light shows for people and what not. I went to one show with them at a local venue and I remember going on and on about how it's not impressive watching a dude hit spacebar on his macbook and dance on stage :rollin

Give me some instrumentation and some lyrics!
 
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I see my friends and other people worship those edm dj's. People post pics of them getting water thrown on them by their favorite dj and say it's a great honor. Weird.
I like EDM, the music is cool and id go to a festival or two...

But some people are just WAY too much into it. 
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 I feel like if youve been to one, youve been to them all. Im sure its a good time everytime, but my boy claims to love that crap and is a "huge" EDM head when he just started messing with it around the same time it blew up (like last year? 
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If you've always liked rap music chances are you won't like that mainstream edm trash that everyone listens to now.
Checkout king fantastic, rap mixed with edm sounds l
 
If you've always liked rap music chances are you won't like that mainstream edm trash that everyone listens to now.
Checkout king fantastic, rap mixed with edm sounds l

That's the other thing... We have a edm night at my work... I'll hear a random Rakim bar/sample, and I'll be like... Why can't you just play paid in full?...
 
Story of my life.. all my friends love that ****. Even some probably never heard of a trance song back in the days (my sisters loved that stuff), most of them are on it hard now. Raves are the most talked about events, even ones that aren't coming up until months. It's been/becoming cult status around many peeps I know. If it matters, I've been to a lot of raves with my friends, but not really looking to go to one anytime soon unless a bunch of people get me to go.

Not hating though, I love hip-hop and the subject is on my mind as much as EDM is on theirs. And when I'm on one.. I'd rather listen to hip-hop, anyone else like that? :lol
 
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:pCame in here to say hip hop is amazing when your lifted :lol

Trees for me only ,can't be waking upon the gas station bathroom with my pants on my ankles :lol :{


Be safe :)
 
Not hating though, I love hip-hop and the subject is on my mind as much as EDM is on theirs. And when I'm on one.. I'd rather listen to hip-hop, anyone else like that?
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Well I grew up with every genre under my household and appreciate it all. but anyways fast forward to about the second time I rolled I was at a 2 day rave and then took a break with friends and said "this is dope and all but I'm tryna hear some rap" dude overhears us and says go to blah-blah stage all they're playing is rap and there's female dogs twerking n ****. got there and it just ended. I would say it has some effect rolling and listening to rap but theres a reason some drugs are associated with different genres. I danced my a** off to EDM as I always do but I would say Electronic music brings in almost all the drugs, Rap is more of a smoke n drink and metal is the same. but we'd rather just get hella drunk
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Its just what's on the mind and spirit of the person at hand on that certain occasion. I've been on and thought of other people's troubles including myself and said my crew "f it man, I'm going country for about 4 songs". some genres are about the individual, I would say rap for this instance. others about togetherness like EDM. rap shows are the worst because dudes are worried about their image and looking to catch fades as soon as someone touches them. So listening to a song the words speak to 'me' and others songs speak to 'us' EDM with the use of togetherness as well as using molly which makes you friendly to people it just works together
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you guys feel me?

nothing beats being weed high and listening to a song and it just HITS you
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dem slow lyrical slaps

my take I suppose, take with salts of grain
 
Aint nothing better then bumping some reggae when lifted....gregory issacs, bob, lucky dube, j boog....etc.. :smokin
 
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