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I think we're the same person
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3 of the same?

-'Mutual' break up last year with a girl I was seeing for 12 years, I will never love another person like that

-Hooked up with a heavier, 40 year old chick like a month ago, just for fun, I hate myself for it

I feel better
 
What does she have going for her: Her voice? The p? The fact that she's different than most broads and has ambition and a quick wit? We have a whole ******** in common in terms of how we came up and our attitudes. Not to mention I have a lot invested as far as time/energy/emotion.

Why I don't think I can find better: I want a girl who came up like me, speaks my mother tongue, and is from the same background (very rare). Now she's not from the same exact background but it's literally the closest thing to it. Having trouble finding these girls even after using the online dating sites for people who speak our language.
 
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I understand things a lot better now. It's basically that everything is there, the background, the ambition, the fact she's different than most girls, and all that's missing is the chemistry.

Hopefully you get things worked out. The professional sounds like a pain but try and approach it positively and give it a chance.
 
Can't say I want to die, but have had the craziest feeling that I was going to die sometime soon! The image is so vivid in my mind it's ridiculous. I have no clue how or when all I can see is my funeral and my wife and kids and they don't look any older then they are now which leads me to believe it's around the corner.. A lot of déjà vu lately, anytime I feel it start to happen I do something super random because I don't know what the outcome is going to be... But to you homie you only live once, experience all you can and live to the fullest

I've had thsoe moments a lot where I have a dream then it happens, days, weeks, or months after. Hope that one specific dream doesn't come true for you homie. Think I've found the problem for myself though, I put way to much pressure upon myself for no reason then my mind goes into overdrive about it and I keep thinking and thinking about it until a new topic takes over my mind.
 
One time I had a dream I got a ticket and literally the next day I got one :{ my brother paid it tho since I was in his truck and his plates were expired.
 
I think we're the same person 8o 8o
3 of the same?

-'Mutual' break up last year with a girl I was seeing for 12 years, I will never love another person like that
-Hooked up with a heavier, 40 year old chick like a month ago, just for fun, I hate myself for it

I feel better

g god damn
was it mutual like yall were growing apart or was it mutual because one party cheated on the other?
 
Keep getting nightmares/dreams of failing to get back with my ex. I'm not tryna deal with that atm, I got basketball tryouts. Waited years for this ****, I'm going ham
 
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Keep getting nightmares/dreams of failing to get back with my ex. I'm not tryna deal with that atm, I got basketball tryouts. Waited 2 years for this ****, I'm going ham

You're probably not over her , but go ahead and handle that .
 
-Friday I left campus feeling on top of the world like nothing could stop me
-Saturday Night I feel at the lowest of low.
-I LEGIT have no idea what to do with my life at this moment
 
3 of the same?

-'Mutual' break up last year with a girl I was seeing for 12 years, I will never love another person like that
-Hooked up with a heavier, 40 year old chick like a month ago, just for fun, I hate myself for it

I feel better

WHOA! 12 years.

I'm approaching 10... I thought I have it locked in (no ring yet, but going to start shopping for one. Soon I hope).
Guess things could change if I don't get my stuff together.
Just need to find a full-time steady job that can help support my share. Shes all set and waiting...

My focus is getting better. Where I want to be is getting to be more clear.


bendover bendover bro, we all go through those stages. Still young, still have time. You're still in school, ppl change their career paths all the time If thats what you are thinking). Maybe go talk to an academic counselor or a friend or something to get stuff off your chest.
 
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Recently got over my sadness and I'm not sure how, but for anyone that's depressed right now just push through and keep positive, it's only temporary. I wish you all the best. :Nthat
 
damn. feel so empty and hopeless right now. didn't get to walk on to the team. haven't sobbed like this since my dawg died. I could call cheese/bs over what happened and point fingers/save face but the result isn't gonna change, i'm a sophomore in college with no team. I let my people down, don't even want to touch a ball ever again. Guess it's time to grow up and come back down to earth, my hoop dreams are officially over, **** they never even started
 
damn. feel so empty and hopeless right now. didn't get to walk on to the team. haven't sobbed like this since my dawg died. I could call cheese/bs over what happened and point fingers/save face but the result isn't gonna change, i'm a sophomore in college with no team. I let my people down, don't even want to touch a ball ever again. Guess it's time to grow up and come back down to earth, my hoop dreams are officially over, **** they never even started
just grind harder....I got a boy who played juco ball, dropped out of school to take care of his daughter went back to school last year and transfered to another school this year just so he could play college ball and possibly go over seas and he's 26...its never too late just use this to fuel you to make it to the next level

I gurantee the first person to talk **** about you not making the team is gonna fuel you so much...
 
damn. feel so empty and hopeless right now. didn't get to walk on to the team. haven't sobbed like this since my dawg died. I could call cheese/bs over what happened and point fingers/save face but the result isn't gonna change, i'm a sophomore in college with no team. I let my people down, don't even want to touch a ball ever again. Guess it's time to grow up and come back down to earth, my hoop dreams are officially over, **** they never even started
This pales in comparison to college ball, but I was the last cut on my high school squad so I know the feeling. 
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 I also felt robbed especially since all the guys who made the team projected me to make it and wanted me over the guy they took. Hey at least got to live out some hoop dreams in high school right?

I felt like I was never going to touch a ball again when it happened to me, but I ended up developing more as a player after it happened than I ever had before since I was still raw back then. The point I'm trying to make is not to give up on the sport you love because of this, you're a sophomore in college in your prime and should try and enjoy it.

Who knows, if you keep working at it maybe you'll have a shot next year (unless it's not realistic at that point). Is club an option?
 
Kinda worried about going in the Air Force as a journalist after those two American journalists got beheaded recently :{
 
The only sustainable remedy for depression is exercise.
Plain and simple, one hour a day makes the remaining 23 so much better.
Animals also have healing powers.
 
Been lifting and starting to lose weight, 

new school and in my communication in action/english class, made some friends and we always joke around

I just don't know how to go about with hanging afterschool with em

How to connect with more people, since i'm extremely introverted with anxiety problems i just can't go up to random people. I'll start trying tho

Can't find a job to save my life

Rarely get interviews and even then, no call back

even though they say i all do well 
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Its gonna take me 6-6.5 years total to finish college, hella sad.
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4 more yrs left, Hella sad.
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Might not make the deadline to transfer in 5 months. Hella sad. 
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Plus 2 more yrs for grad school, hella sad. 
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Its gonna take me 6-6.5 years total to finish college, hella sad.
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4 more yrs left, Hella sad.
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Might not make the deadline to transfer in 5 months. Hella sad. 
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Plus 2 more yrs for grad school, hella sad. 
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Chin Up, maybe something unexpected will happen bro 
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Its gonna take me 6-6.5 years total to finish college, hella sad.:{



4 more yrs left, Hella sad.:{


Might not make the deadline to transfer in 5 months. Hella sad. :{


Plus 2 more yrs for grad school, hella sad. :{
Man atleast your in college homie you don't know how many people would kill to be in your position

Take advantage of everything they offer you homie don't let that time screw you up stick to your guns and make it worth it man

You CAN do it :hat
 
Been lifting and starting to lose weight, 
new school and in my communication in action/english class, made some friends and we always joke around
I just don't know how to go about with hanging afterschool with em
How to connect with more people, since i'm extremely introverted with anxiety problems i just can't go up to random people. I'll start trying tho

Can't find a job to save my life
Rarely get interviews and even then, no call back
even though they say i all do well |I
Try small gigs on craigslist they have job fairs in there fairly often also

Jut give it a shot
 
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