Confessions

Giving up the tree, the cigs.
Starting an internship but feel really out of place. Cutting everyone off hoping it helps me.
 
I miss my ex. I should've said why I wasn't happy instead of instantly saying I Think we should see other people. I'm such an idiot.

But then again going through my texts from February to today, she changed a lot. Not even a random have a good day or I love you like I would say.

Maaannnn FDB.
 
Its gonna take me 6-6.5 years total to finish college, hella sad.:{



4 more yrs left, Hella sad.:{


Might not make the deadline to transfer in 5 months. Hella sad. :{


Plus 2 more yrs for grad school, hella sad. :{

I would love to be back in college right now.
 
when I'm feeling really down on certain days of my depression like today I do extreme cleaning of my place. Apparently younger me was really good at hiding weed baggies in my drawers and such that I have enough scrap to fill a bowl. Too bad I gave up drinking and smoking to better myself
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Probably just gonna throw it away
 
My mom passed away a little bit over 2 months ago. I miss her like crazy. I have some days that are good and some days that are bad. I feel like I am missing a part of me. This pain hurts. Some days idgaf about life. I sometimes have thoughts about me dying so I would not have to feel like this anymore. I won't and can't do it because I gotta be here to watch out for my fam. I don't even like to go out anymore. I am pretty sure this **** aint normal. Some days I don't even have an appetite and some days I binge like crazy just cuz idc and I have no damns to give. I am pretty sure it's because I am depressed. I still wake up everyday thinking I'll see her even though I know I won't.
 
My mom passed away a little bit over 2 months ago. I miss her like crazy. I have some days that are good and some days that are bad. I feel like I am missing a part of me. This pain hurts. Some days idgaf about life. I sometimes have thoughts about me dying so I would not have to feel like this anymore. I won't and can't do it because I gotta be here to watch out for my fam. I don't even like to go out anymore. I am pretty sure this **** aint normal. Some days I don't even have an appetite and some days I binge like crazy just cuz idc and I have no damns to give. I am pretty sure it's because I am depressed. I still wake up everyday thinking I'll see her even though I know I won't.

I lost my brother, a little over half a decade. I sobbed hard for the longest time. Withdrew from 'living' and did nothing. I told nobody else outside family members, so everyone I interacted with outside the crib thought I was some emo and left me alone.

To this day, I still see him. It haunts me and I really wish I had just one more day with em. The sadness isn't as bad as when it happened, but I still feel empty at times.

If I were you I would find people to talk to. Holding it in all this time is probably why im so messed up. No matter how bad it gets, don't give up on life bc your family needs you. Things will get better, as the pain will one day subside
 
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kix and th3answ3r...both of you are braver than i'll ever be. Keep pushing on and be a good person to family, friends, and strangers. Be the best you can be, that is what would make them the most happy. God bless you two and your families
 
I lost my brother, a little over half a decade. I sobbed hard for the longest time. Withdrew from 'living' and did nothing. I told nobody else outside family members, so everyone I interacted with outside the crib thought I was some emo and left me alone.

To this day, I still see him. It haunts me and I really wish I had just one more day with em. The sadness isn't as bad as when it happened, but I still feel empty at times.

If I were you I would find people to talk to. Holding it in all this time is probably why im so messed up. No matter how bad it gets, don't give up on life bc your family needs you. Things will get better, as the pain will one day subside

I lost my big bro almost 2 years ago.... **** hurts..... I've cut everybody off including myself.... I sit at my spot n burn trees all day, I really gotta get out of this funk, like I am stuck thinking about my brother everyday, and how it ended, how my last day with him was, how I found him, the hurt I feel is not fixable, I need to get up out, I feel like I don't even kno how to beat down with people anymore... I jus got a chip in my shoulder. Honestly how do you even get over the past to have a bright future..... I'm like in limbo and it's no bueno...
 
A good friend of mine tells me she likes me, she's happy when she's with me (we work together) and wishes we could be more than friends.

But


She has a boyfriend. And hates going home to him.

What am I supposed to say...I hate that. Makes me feel awful man.
 
A good friend of mine tells me she likes me, she's happy when she's with me (we work together) and wishes we could be more than friends.

But


She has a boyfriend. And hates going home to him.

What am I supposed to say...I hate that. Makes me feel awful man.

nothing...unless he's abusing her she needs to step up and bounce from him

if he's abusing her thats a different set of issues
 
A good friend of mine tells me she likes me, she's happy when she's with me (we work together) and wishes we could be more than friends.

But


She has a boyfriend. And hates going home to him.

What am I supposed to say...I hate that. Makes me feel awful man.
I'll never understand why people stick with someone they resent. Only reason that makes some sense to me is if their personalities did a 180 from what they once were and are already in too deep, but I digress.

You could tell her to obviously leave him if she isn't happy, but then that could potentially put you in the homewrecker position. Only thing you can really do is to hope she comes to her senses and leaves him without you flat-out convincing her to do so.
 
I dealt with a woman (ex) that was like that. Stuck with a dude "financially". It's all bad. Abort mission whole you can. Only you get hurt in the end. Trust me :{
 
just finished watching the movie ''Mischief"

really brought back memories of when the only friend I considered my true friend was living here. all the dumb stuff we did, the good times, how well we did with girls having each others backs 
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these feels 
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haven't had a friend since he left, just a bunch of people I hang/use to hang with that I can see through.
 
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