ogmcmxcii
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Broooo that quote "How can I laugh tomorrow if I can't even smile today" can't even describe...... ......this is real af my same story. Honestly weed at a point of my life (19-22) was life changing. First time seeing an imperfect world clearly and beautiful through an altered mind state. Your reason is the same why I gave it up. I felt carefree but dangerous at the same time being high. I'm lowkey depressed but striving to break throughYeah it's hard for me not to think about everything though if that makes sense.
I used to smoke trees, wouldn't say I was a pothead but I had my twice a week type of thing. I did get into heavier drug use though. I was always paranoid from trees in general but now I hate it. I have terrible thoughts with depression already so adding paranoia doesn't help at all. It stopped being a recreational thing. Hate how it makes me feel. I did stop drinking alcohol for a few months. now I'm more of a 1 beer a night type of guy.
I want to remain in control which is why I don't smoke trees because I feel that I'm not. All this "good guy" talk by me but I will say that molly is something I still do though. only about 4 times a year when I do go to raves. I don't down from it but I feel bad about myself that I actually feel happy for once but it came in a pill.
what adds to my depression is that fact and also when I think ahead in the future I won't be happy then so I get more sad now. How can I laugh tomorrow if I can't even smile today?
also my avy works great because like in my sig I love metal music.