Confessions

Same thing happened to me bout a year ago. Stopped smoking and driving after that.
I hear u. I only drove cause I had to drop a friend home and I'm sure cops was probably out cause its day before July 4th in ny so yeah I definitely drove past a few
 
Man i just wanna be skinny
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 ive been working on it for a while now but i dont feel like ill ever be happy with myself
 
CONFESSION 14?: i messaged my ex asking her if she's okay bc i had a dream the other day she wasn't, last time i had a dream like that she really wasn't fine so i went ahead and messaged her tonight. literally did the 
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 after i pressed send, oh well.

feel stupid since i told her to **** off (she deserved it, trust me) last time we spoke.

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CONFESSION 14?: i messaged my ex asking her if she's okay bc i had a dream the other day she wasn't, last time i had a dream like that she really wasn't fine so i went ahead and messaged her tonight. literally did the 
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 after i pressed send, oh well.
feel stupid since i told her to **** off (she deserved it, trust me) last time we spoke.

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Just got home from the mountains :hat

I recommend this kind of trip to anyone who is stressing.

Details of your trip? I'm assuming you went solo, which IMO is the way to go if you're looking to unwind and de-stress.

On a related note, have you ever considered paying a visit to an isolation tank center in your area?
 
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Just got home from the mountains :hat

I recommend this kind of trip to anyone who is stressing.

Details of your trip? I'm assuming you went solo, which IMO is the way to go if you're looking to unwind and de-stress.

On a related note, have you ever considered paying a visit to an isolation tank center in your area?

Yes, I went solo. The trip was great, the house I was in lays in the mountains. So the view was pure mountains and blue skies. The air was clean as can be. I left all technology at home. iPod, phone, laptop, everything. It was just me and nature. :hat

I went hiking in the mountains a couple times. During the day it was serene, and at night it had shock value. Which I love. Bears, cougers, and all types of animals lived in there.

There was also a natural lake a few miles off. I would jog to the lake, then jump in. The water was a clear brown. But it had zero chemicals, just water and underlying sediments. So swimming in there felt really good.

But the atmosphere in general was simple serene. The only town in sight was a few mile off, so when I went hiking or running in the night all the stars were out. Before bed I would read a chapter from "The Art of War" and think about it as I stretched before bed.

It's a trip I would recomend for anyone.
 
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Never? We all say that homie. Unfortunately, we can't all live that Clooney life. Some chick will be baking you chicken and giving up that good in no time and you're gonna be like damn, what the **** was I thinking?

But good luck on your path my brother.
 
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I have 26 days to go with my current roommate and they cant go by fast enough

Never in my life have I been around someone who I dont like as much as this kid :{
 
Yes, I went solo. The trip was great, the house I was in lays in the mountains. So the view was pure mountains and blue skies. The air was clean as can be. I left all technology at home. iPod, phone, laptop, everything. It was just me and nature.
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I went hiking in the mountains a couple times. During the day it was serene, and at night it had shock value. Which I love. Bears, cougers, and all types of animals lived in there.

There was also a natural lake a few miles off. I would jog to the lake, then jump in. The water was a clear brown. But it had zero chemicals, just water and underlying sediments. So swimming in there felt really good.

But the atmosphere in general was simple serene. The only town in sight was a few mile off, so when I went hiking or running in the night all the stars were out. Before bed I would read a chapter from "The Art of War" and think about it as I stretched before bed.

It's a trip I would recomend for anyone.
TBh I'd be scared to go out in the mountains by myself, I might set this up since I'll be 18 next year though.
 
TBh I'd be scared to go out in the mountains by myself, I might set this up since I'll be 18 next year though.

Then don't go at night :lol

I remember one night, I was hiking all day. Night fell, and there was thick fog everywhere. So I'm walking through the trees, and I can barely see the trail in front of me. All I'm armed with is a knife. It seriously looked like I was playing Slenderman. But that fear was something I was out to control. So I kept walking towards the house, which was still a ways away. Every little crack, rustle, and odd noise had me jumping for a minute. Then I calmed down, and I felt like it was all just positive. Felt good.
 
TBh I'd be scared to go out in the mountains by myself, I might set this up since I'll be 18 next year though.

Then don't go at night :lol

I remember one night, I was hiking all day. Night fell, and there was thick fog everywhere. So I'm walking through the trees, and I can barely see the trail in front of me. All I'm armed with is a knife. It seriously looked like I was playing Slenderman. But that fear was something I was out to control. So I kept walking towards the house, which was still a ways away. Every little crack, rustle, and odd noise had me jumping for a minute. Then I calmed down, and I felt like it was all just positive. Felt good.

Reminds me of this one camping trip I went on with my two closest friends. We were 17 at the time, and it was me and my friend who decided to explore the camp site at night.

With an knife in one hand and a lantern in another, we walked about 1000 feet into the forest. As soon as I heard this really loud rustle behind a bush, I booked it like Reggie Bush back to our campsite :lol
 
I remember when making a 2k profit gave me a high better than sex. Now it just takes the edge off.

Funny how people always say I surprise them at what I do, I often imagine if I were to ever surprise myself.

Crazy how lazy I can be with massive success looming over me.

I need to go dull my senses...
 
I remember when making a 2k profit gave me a high better than sex. Now it just takes the edge off.

Funny how people always say I surprise them at what I do, I often imagine if I were to ever surprise myself.

Crazy how lazy I can be with massive success looming over me.

I need to go dull my senses...

Details? You might just be experiencing a shift in what motivates you in life.

Wealth used to motivate me. Now, it's more about expression.
 
I used to think money and success would fulfill me, now it's more about being fulfilled outside of my pockets.

By no means am I stupidly successful but I know people who are and they loathe their lives at times.

Sad thing is I see myself taking that same path.

It's inevitable I guess...
 
i miss my ex so much. our relationship was pretty complicated.

She lived with her ex & he ended up spiking her phone :{.

I'm unsure if she misses me, I hope she does though.

I also hope her BD is treating her better too.. all I'm asking for.

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I can't stop thinking about her though, I always think about the good times we've had just so I can feel happy again :\

only thing that'll get her off my mind would be hopping on my bicycle & drinking with the crew. it's sad.

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I deserved to die last week, but it didn't happen.. why?

I damb near almost killed myself last Wednesday after driving home from the strip club.

Drinking & driving got real :eek.

Yeah I should have died or gone to jail/gotten a DUI.

I'm still here though so I'm scared my damb self.

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^ get ya self together man
I will try man, it's so easy to just say that.

I've thought about suicide so much that it gets to me at certain times especially when I am alone driving by myself at night :\

I am aware that there are more fish in the sea & that there's more to life.

Sometimes I think about a world without all of that.. in that little time of driving, I just want to be free :o
 
I have to come clean. I went to a call girl since prostitution is legal in England. It really boosted my confidence. I thought I would have awkward virgin sex. I lasted real long and made a 39 year old professional come twice. She said that never happens. I told her to be completely honest in judging my technique and she taught me a lot of stuff. Sizewise I am much better than I thought but I will not go into detail about that.

Honestly. I prefer it to chasing girls. I am positive most girls would not **** like that after showering them with drinks and gifts. Even if you do get some they may just play dead fish. I am probably going to be hitting up call girls from now on tbh. Wish I could go back in time and tell myself to do it earlier. I need to start my big boy job so I can afford to do that regularly.

Makes me look at girls a lot different now. She was an amazing **** and sex still wasnt that great. Nowhere near as I imagined. Definitely not going to put em on a pedestal or deal with their ******** for that.
 
You know you're gonna be back in that P next week. You know I'm right too.

Not this time.........an I feel like I never want a relationship again.

Why? why'd you let her go? I'm content being single, doing me and walking away from anything that I don't like as if it's nothing. But there's no feelings or real memories, you know? I miss the crazy in my relationships more than I miss that fun chick I had good times with.


I have to come clean. I went to a call girl since prostitution is legal in England. It really boosted my confidence. I thought I would have awkward virgin sex. I lasted real long and made a 39 year old professional come twice. She said that never happens. I told her to be completely honest in judging my technique and she taught me a lot of stuff. Sizewise I am much better than I thought but I will not go into detail about that.

Honestly. I prefer it to chasing girls. I am positive most girls would not **** like that after showering them with drinks and gifts. Even if you do get some they may just play dead fish. I am probably going to be hitting up call girls from now on tbh. Wish I could go back in time and tell myself to do it earlier. I need to start my big boy job so I can afford to do that regularly.

Makes me look at girls a lot different now. She was an amazing **** and sex still wasnt that great. Nowhere near as I imagined. Definitely not going to put em on a pedestal or deal with their ******** for that.


:lol Oh ok. And you're killing me bruh, you make excuses to not take the path that people successfully take everyday, in everything, in every damn thread.
 
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