i feel like i'm restricted from growing in life.
i mean, i'm not working as a hooker or anything. i don't see what the fuss is. i'm in it for the experience, really. i told him even if it was free labor, i'd still do it. and he'd call me stupid for saying so. 
also, i learned how to be alot more responsible regarding my studies and my job. i don't procrastinate anymore. i do my assignments beforehand.
i feel like i can't even make my own decisions without my dad always yelling at me. everybody but my dad is excited about my FIRST job ever. every single day he lectures me about my salary and forcing me to quit.
i find it even more sad than my bf has always been supportive of all my decisions than my dad ever was.
the person who is supposed to support me unconditionally talks the most **** about me.
it just makes me feel so worthless since all i try to do is make him proud. he told me to forget my friends, to not have a life when i was in socal. i obeyed him. he told me that i should study until i get sick and exhausted -- to the point where i NEVER shower and eat.
he never was proud of any of my achievements EVER while i was growing up. and that makes me feel like ****.
sorry, i just needed to vent.
