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My parents haven't always been too fond of each other. Recently I haven't been too fond of him either. Deep down, I actually feel disappointed in him. All my life, I wanted him to be the father figure in my life, but I feel like he's too passive. First off, he doesn't know what he is doing with his life. I know he cares for his family, but he can never get it right. Everyone in the family has talked to him before, but he just doesn't change his habits. He is in his mid-fifties now and I think he may potentially be suffering from Alzheimer's. He would forget a lot of details which causes everyone to be annoyed. My mother has put up with him all her life, and she is the only one making money for the family. My older sister is on her own, and doesn't do much either, and I am currently living with both my parents. Honestly, I can't even really describe why I dislike my father, but I'm just disappointed in him through all the small things. Never has he ever tried to initiate a heart-to-heart talk with me before, never has he asked how school was; it's like as if in his mind, he is merely pretending to be a father and not actually "being one". Sure, he cooks and drives us everywhere but I felt like he could've contributed so much more to the family. My family has always been motivating him to find a career he likes, but everytime he does, he half-%+!*@ it and never goes through with it. For example, a while back, he and his friend had plans of going back to South Korea (where I was from) and starting a small permanent business; however, he went and came back in about a month saying he didn't like the weather, and that was that. God I've never felt so disappointed in him in all my life. In the back of my mind, I've always trusted him to grind it out and pursue something he loves, but it just never happened. I know he is old, but damn, I expected so much more from him. Throughout my life I have avoided him just so I would not grow up to be like him. That was how serious it was. I have tried talking to him about life but he just doesn't seem to see the bigger picture. I feel like he's just wasting his life now, and there's nothing I can do to change it if he isn't willing to take the first step.
And to add, he has a personality which I can't stand. When he gets mad at my mom, he literally does the exact opposite of what she says. It pisses me off that he does, because he doesn't earn any money for the family and he's being so arrogant.
Sorry here are cliff notes:
-Disappointed in my dad
-He just does his job as a dad, but isn't a father figure to me
-Claims he cares for me but just doesn't know what I actually expect from him
-I have confronted him before and he doesn't get it
-Half-#*@@@ everything in life
-Doesn't change
Sorry for the rant, but I am curious as to what your relationships is like
And to add, he has a personality which I can't stand. When he gets mad at my mom, he literally does the exact opposite of what she says. It pisses me off that he does, because he doesn't earn any money for the family and he's being so arrogant.
Sorry here are cliff notes:
-Disappointed in my dad
-He just does his job as a dad, but isn't a father figure to me
-Claims he cares for me but just doesn't know what I actually expect from him
-I have confronted him before and he doesn't get it
-Half-#*@@@ everything in life
-Doesn't change
Sorry for the rant, but I am curious as to what your relationships is like
