What up NT fam, I feel lost and thought maybe starting this thread would help me find some insight. The last few months have been some of the hardest of my life. I haven't felt this bad since my Dad passed away. I thought I had a handle on my depression but after certain events its come back with a vengeance. It's gotten to the point were I finally decided to seek help, I go to therapy and I'm also on meds...which I don't even believe in but at this point I'm desperate. I've thought about suicide at times....but the only thing holding me back are my mom and sister. Those are the last 2 people I want to hurt but I seem to hurt them anyway with my anger and outbursts. I'm afraid of where my life is headed
I suffered from depression, and currently anxiety. I fought a long battle with rejection, and abandonment, it followed me into adulthood. My biggest regret was not seeking help earlier, but truth is I'm black and in the low income black community seeing a therapist is frowned upon.
I love her, she's changed my life and I take anti-anxiety meds now, I feel like Bradley Cooper in Limitless, that Black Keys song is always playing in my mind 20mins after I take the pills and I start seeing things more clearly. Basically concentration levels are through the roof because I sorted out my feelings and emotions between healthy and unhealthy. Serotonin is a very underrated substance that can really mess you up physically and mentally.
Seek help and don't be afraid to admit to others you believe you have a problem. Mass Hysteria is also a mental illness, so don't let other people's opinion of you deter you from seeking help or shame you into thinking you're broken.
The fact that you even inquired or sought out help because you believe you are broken actually puts you ahead of the pack and shows strong character.
PM if you need any help or have questions.