About a year ago, my ex broke up with me after I cheated on her. I've always considered myself a good guy but choose to live by that J**** line: "I was just f'n these broads, I was goin get right back".
What hurt about losing her was that she was my homie from high school and a person I could really call a best friend. It was never on my mind to take her serious as a gf but I decided to finally make a move on her after we graduated college (it helped that she was a late bloomer and developed into something gorgeous). We both were apprehensive because we didn't want to ruin our friendship, so we made a promise to remain friends no matter what happened between us.
Everything in our relationship was going great until one night we get drunk and are chilling at her parents place. I decide to take a power nap then wake up to her questioning me about broads she should have no knowledge of so I knew something was up. Then she throws my phone at me and of course I had no lock on my phone smh.
Long story even longer, we're both pretty religious so she tells me she's going to take a fast from dating guys for a year (which I wanted to call BS on but had no real grounds). A few weeks after the breakup I tried reaching out to her a couple times to no avail. She'd always respond back hours or days later with a text.
A year later and I'm still thinking about her fam. Part of me wants her back but the other part tells me I should play the field. I'm going back and forth every day thinking should I try my hand or just fold.
She has almost everything I want/need in a woman in my life. Great job, her own whip, ambition, goals, drive, we share the same religion.
I spent this past year trying to make myself a better person so that I'd be able to show her a reason to give me another shot. But I'm not sure I've got this dawg mentality out of me. I want to stay faithful, I'm sure I will, but for how long? IDK
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