Finally went off my path of health the other day, got high as hell. At the time, I gave no damns, my nerves were out of line and it was there. Shrug.
Right now I'm simpin kinda hard on this girl,
my mind is tellin me no, but my body, my body is tellin me yeah! I want it to work, but it's kind of hard. I can either cope with giving up on her, or just keep going for her and get something else on the side until that day. I'm thinking the latter, she isn't the kind you just give up on.
I'm feeling really depressed right now. Everything that made me happy then, is no longer appealing to me. Now, that simple fact is bothering me so much it's making it worse. I'm usually very cognitive with these types of issues, but I can't even convince myself of the better logics anymore.
I've spent the past three or four days of my life golfing. Yet, I'm so angry that I swing down so hard the ball always ends up cut. Had to reduce myself to the range.