Official Confessions Thread. vol: Aint had one of these in a while.

[youngtriz]

Originally Posted by AntBanks81

I got too many bad vices...

-I love weed, I'd smoke all day if I didn't have to work
-I love alcohol...I've went away from the beer but pretty much will drink anything with a proof
-I love the strip club, haven't been in a few weeks but I love seeing 10-15 women strolling around buck naked and then getting it in on stage
-I am a gambler...my favorite words are "bet something" that always makes ppl $%@*

All in all I feel I'm a good dude, but my BM makes me sick sometimes, I have thought about bouncing on her, but I want the family for my kids. 

  

damn we live the same life...

 

[dajondondo]

how do yall fap 9 times a day whoaaaaaaaaaaaaa how do yal fap 3 times a day whoaaaaaaaa

the most i can is 2 times a day.... but back to back days.. helll naww.....

lmao @ dude ran a train on chick and wifed her. smhhh

 

[ervinsb91]

Originally Posted by Trent Ferris

^^i feel you on damn near everything in both posts. Even the hoopty (****** being fixed as we speak) 

. I love my family to death but i feel like somewhere they turned me into a beta aka (nice guy). I want to get into med school so i can finally leave nj behind and start somewhere new and fresh, my only fear is that ill get stuck in the same rut only not have family around to talk to. Currently picking up hobbies and buckling down on studying. i aim to hit my peak as a person in my later in life instead of these dudes i see who already hit it during/after high school. i have a love-hate relationship with most black girls just because i see myself marrying one in the future, but all the ones I've met or dealt with are extremely oblivious to anything outside themselves/have NOTHING going for them outside a cute face and fat ***.

 third wrote:                                                                                                                                                                                            I hate my friends and I've been trying to get rid of them for about 5 years now 

i plan on dropping a large portion of hs friends within this next couple of months. Slowly dropping people off facebook, plan on closing it b4 my birthday. 

also: i haven't smashed in a year and have no prospects when it comes to women *feels bad*

. i need to meet newer and more diverse groups of people

.

 

[dajondondo]

how do yall fap 9 times a day whoaaaaaaaaaaaaa how do yal fap 3 times a day whoaaaaaaaa

the most i can is 2 times a day.... but back to back days.. helll naww.....

lmao @ dude ran a train on chick and wifed her. smhhh

 

[ervinsb91]

Originally Posted by Trent Ferris

^^i feel you on damn near everything in both posts. Even the hoopty (****** being fixed as we speak) 

. I love my family to death but i feel like somewhere they turned me into a beta aka (nice guy). I want to get into med school so i can finally leave nj behind and start somewhere new and fresh, my only fear is that ill get stuck in the same rut only not have family around to talk to. Currently picking up hobbies and buckling down on studying. i aim to hit my peak as a person in my later in life instead of these dudes i see who already hit it during/after high school. i have a love-hate relationship with most black girls just because i see myself marrying one in the future, but all the ones I've met or dealt with are extremely oblivious to anything outside themselves/have NOTHING going for them outside a cute face and fat ***.

 third wrote:                                                                                                                                                                                            I hate my friends and I've been trying to get rid of them for about 5 years now 

i plan on dropping a large portion of hs friends within this next couple of months. Slowly dropping people off facebook, plan on closing it b4 my birthday. 

also: i haven't smashed in a year and have no prospects when it comes to women *feels bad*

. i need to meet newer and more diverse groups of people

.

 

[mf doomer]

Las Vegas is kinda depressing. It's terrible living here.
This stripper got me for 70$, for like 4 lap dances. I definitely tricked that night.
If I could smoke all the time, I would. Sometimes I feel I can't function without it.
I think I have an attention deficit disorder. Weed can only help it.

 

[mf doomer]

Las Vegas is kinda depressing. It's terrible living here.
This stripper got me for 70$, for like 4 lap dances. I definitely tricked that night.
If I could smoke all the time, I would. Sometimes I feel I can't function without it.
I think I have an attention deficit disorder. Weed can only help it.

 

[black chiney]

I love to smoke...I never wanna give Mary up.
I #@+!%# up in school this semester.
I wanna quit smoking cigarettes...but I don't think I have the willpower to do it.
I need a job...but whenever I apply for a job. I never get a call back
I'm trying to avoid hustling but it seems like my only option.
I don't trust a lot of people.
My dad being in and out of my life as a kid #@+!%# with my head.

 

[black chiney]

I love to smoke...I never wanna give Mary up.
I #@+!%# up in school this semester.
I wanna quit smoking cigarettes...but I don't think I have the willpower to do it.
I need a job...but whenever I apply for a job. I never get a call back
I'm trying to avoid hustling but it seems like my only option.
I don't trust a lot of people.
My dad being in and out of my life as a kid #@+!%# with my head.

 

[truthgetsbusy]

• I think about suicide all the time but I know I would never do it
• I'm losing my faith and I still go to church
• I just graduated from college and I'm not excited at all
• I'm probably gonna have to cut my shoulder length dreads to get a "real job"
• Everytime I'm honest with people things go bad
• I have like 3 friends left and nothing major happened just people moving on in life I guess
• Haven't talked to my dad since summer...we probably wont even call each other on Christmas.
• Been wearing the same clothes for years, haven't had the $

 

[truthgetsbusy]

• I think about suicide all the time but I know I would never do it
• I'm losing my faith and I still go to church
• I just graduated from college and I'm not excited at all
• I'm probably gonna have to cut my shoulder length dreads to get a "real job"
• Everytime I'm honest with people things go bad
• I have like 3 friends left and nothing major happened just people moving on in life I guess
• Haven't talked to my dad since summer...we probably wont even call each other on Christmas.
• Been wearing the same clothes for years, haven't had the $

 

[ballinsam23]

1. i went from being a 95+ avg kid in a real good high school to a 2.9 gpa in college. SUNY Buffalo FTML
2. i think about making pharmacy school every %!!$*$# day and its sickening knowing i actually might not thanks to my ridiculously hard professors and their BS tests

3. in high school i got mad pu55y, now my looks (i've been asked to model before for A/X) + big %%# %!!$*$# campus + dorm + girls everywhere and i got 0 buns in 2 semesters.
4. Girls approach me and ask me if i'm in a frat, being the nice guy that i am i tell the truth, and they walk away
5. I get eye %#$@+% a lot and if and when i do approach 90% of the time these *@$@+## cant carry a convo and i just wanna slap them. this made me stop approaching girls on campus, which made my confidence drop tremendously

6. i turned down D2 ball for a better education at a D1 school. The D1 coach saw me play and told me to come to their practice. I had a test that morning and didnt go (ended up with a C+ on the test

)
7. i feel like everywhere i go bad luck (grades, school, first time feeling this low in my life) follows me so i started to now pray daily........

 

[ballinsam23]

1. i went from being a 95+ avg kid in a real good high school to a 2.9 gpa in college. SUNY Buffalo FTML
2. i think about making pharmacy school every %!!$*$# day and its sickening knowing i actually might not thanks to my ridiculously hard professors and their BS tests

3. in high school i got mad pu55y, now my looks (i've been asked to model before for A/X) + big %%# %!!$*$# campus + dorm + girls everywhere and i got 0 buns in 2 semesters.
4. Girls approach me and ask me if i'm in a frat, being the nice guy that i am i tell the truth, and they walk away
5. I get eye %#$@+% a lot and if and when i do approach 90% of the time these *@$@+## cant carry a convo and i just wanna slap them. this made me stop approaching girls on campus, which made my confidence drop tremendously

6. i turned down D2 ball for a better education at a D1 school. The D1 coach saw me play and told me to come to their practice. I had a test that morning and didnt go (ended up with a C+ on the test

)
7. i feel like everywhere i go bad luck (grades, school, first time feeling this low in my life) follows me so i started to now pray daily........

 

[pip777]

Originally Posted by Trent Ferris

i wish i was the type of guy who could just get jumpoffs and smash random chicks, but i'm not. i'm the type of dude who has to find a girl interesting to even take it that far, and it sucks.

i'm about the least cool black dude there is to not be a complete lame.

when i'm by myself i'm sooo comfortable and cool, but when i'm around people i find myself 2nd guessing EVERYTHING i do from breathing patterns to eye movement to how many times I use a certain word/phrase to my knowledge of subjects. like if i'm in a group of people (God forbid there be a girl in the group who looks good AND digs me) i'll forget information I usually can bring up without a hitch.

I made a covanent with God, and it states that in exchange for success I'll shun all women and concentrate solely on school/work. Last two weeks of school i met a girl, she cheated on her boyfriend with me, he started stalking me and threatened to kill me and my family, and all of this distracted me from my final papers/exams. I'm checking my grades now and i have a D and an F so far. Mind you this is my second to last semester of college. I feel like my soul is torn apart because I really do feel like the pact I made is real, and this is proof, but I'm so desperate for love/companionship that it hurts to see this proof in both his support of me and my bondage to it.

I think I may go crazy at some point and have to be committed, but I also think I'll be a very successful person when it happens.

I think about suicide daily, and I don't even view it as a bad thing. It's just one of the many things that run through my head during the day. Like how would I do it, how good it would feel to die and leave these problems behind but also how scary it would be to crossover in a way that seems to be looked upon as bad.

In conclusion, I am an extremely sad, lonely person, and I feel like it will be like this forever until I meet the girl that brightens my world up, and that's unrealistic because my covenant with God promises that I will not go out of my way, worry, or compromise my self/life for any woman until I have made it in life.

It's incredibly hard for me to find people interesting. Because of this, people think I think I'm better than them, when really this lack of connection makes me feel less and less like a real person, and more like some character in a story.

We all go through tough times man. Just hang in there and be patient. I've had thoughts of suicide and, at one time, came close to accomplishing it. When you least expect it, that girl will be in your life. You just got to work on yourself first. Keep the faith.

 

[pip777]

Originally Posted by Trent Ferris

i wish i was the type of guy who could just get jumpoffs and smash random chicks, but i'm not. i'm the type of dude who has to find a girl interesting to even take it that far, and it sucks.

i'm about the least cool black dude there is to not be a complete lame.

when i'm by myself i'm sooo comfortable and cool, but when i'm around people i find myself 2nd guessing EVERYTHING i do from breathing patterns to eye movement to how many times I use a certain word/phrase to my knowledge of subjects. like if i'm in a group of people (God forbid there be a girl in the group who looks good AND digs me) i'll forget information I usually can bring up without a hitch.

I made a covanent with God, and it states that in exchange for success I'll shun all women and concentrate solely on school/work. Last two weeks of school i met a girl, she cheated on her boyfriend with me, he started stalking me and threatened to kill me and my family, and all of this distracted me from my final papers/exams. I'm checking my grades now and i have a D and an F so far. Mind you this is my second to last semester of college. I feel like my soul is torn apart because I really do feel like the pact I made is real, and this is proof, but I'm so desperate for love/companionship that it hurts to see this proof in both his support of me and my bondage to it.

I think I may go crazy at some point and have to be committed, but I also think I'll be a very successful person when it happens.

I think about suicide daily, and I don't even view it as a bad thing. It's just one of the many things that run through my head during the day. Like how would I do it, how good it would feel to die and leave these problems behind but also how scary it would be to crossover in a way that seems to be looked upon as bad.

In conclusion, I am an extremely sad, lonely person, and I feel like it will be like this forever until I meet the girl that brightens my world up, and that's unrealistic because my covenant with God promises that I will not go out of my way, worry, or compromise my self/life for any woman until I have made it in life.

It's incredibly hard for me to find people interesting. Because of this, people think I think I'm better than them, when really this lack of connection makes me feel less and less like a real person, and more like some character in a story.

We all go through tough times man. Just hang in there and be patient. I've had thoughts of suicide and, at one time, came close to accomplishing it. When you least expect it, that girl will be in your life. You just got to work on yourself first. Keep the faith.

 

[mangudai954]

Originally Posted by Trent Ferris

I relate with 80% of what you said.

 

[mangudai954]

Originally Posted by Trent Ferris

I relate with 80% of what you said.

 

[ro ro 8]

my previous confessions:

Originally Posted by RO RO 8

- i masturbate about 15-20 times a week
- i'm currently seeing 4 girls. i take all of them out on dates and i'm smashing all of them. and i've told each of them i love you
-back in august,i lost my job that i was going to make a career out of. the day i got fired, i threw a tantrum in the office and i got arrested. i said i was going to kill myself and i got checked into a mental hospital for a day
- i hit a neighbor's car back in april and kept it pushing. another neighbor saw it and ratted me out. she ended up taking me to small claims court, and i was on judge joe brown. the episode aired back in october and repeated today. i acted like atotal idioton the show, and my whole family was ashamed,but it was the best time of my life because i got a free trip to hollywood for 3 days, and the show took care of everything
- i spend about $400 on weed a week
- i'm addicted to facebook
- i am the most aggresive driver you will ever meet
- i've been involved in 2 police chases. i actually got away once. i was in my g35 coupe and i hit went 145 with 2 NYPD crown vics behind me. i have no clue how i outran them but i'm glad i did
- i've been driving without a license for about a year. my license in NY is revoked permanently. i owe about $5,000 in fines and have about 25 points on it. i also have a license in PA, but that's suspended as well. i was supposed to get it back the end of february, but i got caught driving last week so they will most likely extend the suspension. i got locked up that day because i also had weed on me
- i'm still driving

here's the vid of me on judge joe brown
more confessions:
- i'm an only child and i'm almost 20 years old. i've been a spoiled brat my whole life
- my parentsjust got ahuge settlementand basically told me that i don't have to work for the rest of my life. but i still work because i feel useless sometimes
- i consider myself a gangster. why? because i do what i want and i live with the consequences.
- there is no way i can step foot in NY for a long time. i am wanted like osama

 

[ro ro 8]

my previous confessions:

Originally Posted by RO RO 8

- i masturbate about 15-20 times a week
- i'm currently seeing 4 girls. i take all of them out on dates and i'm smashing all of them. and i've told each of them i love you
-back in august,i lost my job that i was going to make a career out of. the day i got fired, i threw a tantrum in the office and i got arrested. i said i was going to kill myself and i got checked into a mental hospital for a day
- i hit a neighbor's car back in april and kept it pushing. another neighbor saw it and ratted me out. she ended up taking me to small claims court, and i was on judge joe brown. the episode aired back in october and repeated today. i acted like atotal idioton the show, and my whole family was ashamed,but it was the best time of my life because i got a free trip to hollywood for 3 days, and the show took care of everything
- i spend about $400 on weed a week
- i'm addicted to facebook
- i am the most aggresive driver you will ever meet
- i've been involved in 2 police chases. i actually got away once. i was in my g35 coupe and i hit went 145 with 2 NYPD crown vics behind me. i have no clue how i outran them but i'm glad i did
- i've been driving without a license for about a year. my license in NY is revoked permanently. i owe about $5,000 in fines and have about 25 points on it. i also have a license in PA, but that's suspended as well. i was supposed to get it back the end of february, but i got caught driving last week so they will most likely extend the suspension. i got locked up that day because i also had weed on me
- i'm still driving

here's the vid of me on judge joe brown
more confessions:
- i'm an only child and i'm almost 20 years old. i've been a spoiled brat my whole life
- my parentsjust got ahuge settlementand basically told me that i don't have to work for the rest of my life. but i still work because i feel useless sometimes
- i consider myself a gangster. why? because i do what i want and i live with the consequences.
- there is no way i can step foot in NY for a long time. i am wanted like osama

 

[916kings]

Originally Posted by he told on me

Broke, grandma give me cash to do things with, car may get repo, lonely as hell, them people have made me loose my mind, will never get a female, 24 and wonder when will Jesus relieve the burden. I have super love for people, I realize that super nice guy dude routine will get taken advantaged of. I seriously have given up in life, I just put up a front for my grandmas so I won't hurt them severe. Friends I have are really incomprehensible weed addicted guys who really exhibit some form of ackward thought, I can not really have a really thought provoking convo with them. I'm not looking for Einstein convos but let's stop with the convo about the oz you don't sell, fancy drug methods that are laughable to one who use logic to shift through the bull. I'm no better than them, I once possessed that mind frame and still show signs of it. I'm just suggesting expansion of thought. I've been fapping to sexy women redneck mature porn. Depression can mess your mind up. I've reduced fapping tremendously,I've just accepted the harsh reality of not sexing anymore. Also I have remorse upon finishing. My argument about masterbation is, God speaks against self gratification (to the extinct it replaces his moral values) and laciviousness in the bible. we develop excuses for our poor willpower to exercise self discipline by citing reasons that its essential for health reasons. We watch porn and fap with every ill intent. Let's just stop with silly discourse about God and masterbation. Really want to be a hardcore Christian. I believe God is real, its just to hard to explain for those who don't want to understand. Well, I actually lack the descriptive means. I have not a single shred of self confidence. Believe people have a subconscious hatred towards me based on the words of others, talk to me then conclude. Sometimes get overwhelmed in negative thought that I have moments of dementia. I think everyone is out to get me. They know who they are though, and you know you wrong for the bull you doing/did. I want a good job but im blacklisted. Only one who realizes that there are very few real people. Feels like I'm the dumbest dude ever. Phone never rings. I'm lame as hell, the more I try to repair it, the lamer i get. I need to leave and go away but i have no money. Afraid niketalk may get to mainstream for people like me. Where nothing but celebrities will take it over one day. If I'm alone I can think well, in front of others my brain freezes. When I pee I use no hands. I know its crazy, but when i see someone, I always wonder when was the last time they had sex. When alone,I rap like from I'm from new York but use down south lyrics when I'm by myself, one negates the other. Just humour to me. I cry all the time, I know I'm a %+***. When my family is sleep, I position items in their room so they cant find it. When they wake up and ask me where they at, I tell them somewhere it really is not. Oops sorry for the boredom.

holy wall of text dude

 

[916kings]

Originally Posted by he told on me

Broke, grandma give me cash to do things with, car may get repo, lonely as hell, them people have made me loose my mind, will never get a female, 24 and wonder when will Jesus relieve the burden. I have super love for people, I realize that super nice guy dude routine will get taken advantaged of. I seriously have given up in life, I just put up a front for my grandmas so I won't hurt them severe. Friends I have are really incomprehensible weed addicted guys who really exhibit some form of ackward thought, I can not really have a really thought provoking convo with them. I'm not looking for Einstein convos but let's stop with the convo about the oz you don't sell, fancy drug methods that are laughable to one who use logic to shift through the bull. I'm no better than them, I once possessed that mind frame and still show signs of it. I'm just suggesting expansion of thought. I've been fapping to sexy women redneck mature porn. Depression can mess your mind up. I've reduced fapping tremendously,I've just accepted the harsh reality of not sexing anymore. Also I have remorse upon finishing. My argument about masterbation is, God speaks against self gratification (to the extinct it replaces his moral values) and laciviousness in the bible. we develop excuses for our poor willpower to exercise self discipline by citing reasons that its essential for health reasons. We watch porn and fap with every ill intent. Let's just stop with silly discourse about God and masterbation. Really want to be a hardcore Christian. I believe God is real, its just to hard to explain for those who don't want to understand. Well, I actually lack the descriptive means. I have not a single shred of self confidence. Believe people have a subconscious hatred towards me based on the words of others, talk to me then conclude. Sometimes get overwhelmed in negative thought that I have moments of dementia. I think everyone is out to get me. They know who they are though, and you know you wrong for the bull you doing/did. I want a good job but im blacklisted. Only one who realizes that there are very few real people. Feels like I'm the dumbest dude ever. Phone never rings. I'm lame as hell, the more I try to repair it, the lamer i get. I need to leave and go away but i have no money. Afraid niketalk may get to mainstream for people like me. Where nothing but celebrities will take it over one day. If I'm alone I can think well, in front of others my brain freezes. When I pee I use no hands. I know its crazy, but when i see someone, I always wonder when was the last time they had sex. When alone,I rap like from I'm from new York but use down south lyrics when I'm by myself, one negates the other. Just humour to me. I cry all the time, I know I'm a %+***. When my family is sleep, I position items in their room so they cant find it. When they wake up and ask me where they at, I tell them somewhere it really is not. Oops sorry for the boredom.

holy wall of text dude

 

[mangudai954]

Originally Posted by Cragmatic

Really? You have to be with someone to be happy?

 

[mangudai954]

Originally Posted by Cragmatic

Really? You have to be with someone to be happy?

 

[jawnyquest]

i have a superiority complex that i can not get rid of
i'm broke and convinced i will be broke for the rest of my life
i don't want to get old
i hate my girlfriends daughter
i hate my girlfriend
i don't know why i'm still in this relationship
my homegirl annoys the %%*% out of me most days but i keep her around because she buys me %%%@ from time to time. first time i've ever used somebody.. and i don't feel bad about it. at all.
i have no vices
i'm mad self-hating. i think that's mostly because i'm nothin' like the rest of the people i'm grouped with and i hate the fact i'm grouped with them.
i don't like being different.

 

[jawnyquest]

i have a superiority complex that i can not get rid of
i'm broke and convinced i will be broke for the rest of my life
i don't want to get old
i hate my girlfriends daughter
i hate my girlfriend
i don't know why i'm still in this relationship
my homegirl annoys the %%*% out of me most days but i keep her around because she buys me %%%@ from time to time. first time i've ever used somebody.. and i don't feel bad about it. at all.
i have no vices
i'm mad self-hating. i think that's mostly because i'm nothin' like the rest of the people i'm grouped with and i hate the fact i'm grouped with them.
i don't like being different.