Man this ain't quite the same as what I'm dealing with but there's elements:
I had a girl I was officially not with since last May when things collapsed completely, loved that woman though even through all Her craziness & the drama that came from it.
We were friends fore a couple years before we got together & I told her I wanted to go back to working on our friendship base first after a while(basically after all the drama we had there was no us getting along, she was at a point she wanted to get married but she didn't like the person I was trying to become & it was like we became strangers that were in love...best way to describe that situation shortly). I told her without us getting along we couldn't start a family or anything like that but she still wanted to make things work as disconnected as they were. That was all fine but we didn't get along or coexis & fell out after a few weeks for one reason or another all the time..
Every time I'd feel the need to say my goodbyes, tell her how I felt, why I felt that way & why I felt things were getting to the point they were, I'd tell her how much I loved her & all that. Idk if she listened(actually I know she didn't but I like to think she did) but I did it more for my own sanity so I didn't have to wonder about words never spoken.
I bring this up because the last time was 3 weeks ago, instead of doing the normal thing I just said I put her immediate on the block list & haven't looked back. Just abruptly made the switch & started listening to IDFWU whatever that Big Sean song is. Sometimes you want to do right & say your part but you can't always have that opportunity, but if it's there I say you take it 100% of the time. It kills me every day that things had to end the way they did because nothing else ever worked, don't let that be you unless it needs to be. Always just speak from the heart & leave it out there