I see what your saying brah, but we're not public or anything, we've been a secret thing for a while. Not even official, and only a couple of her friends have been told about us. She's the reason I reactivated my NT account. I needed advice bc I couldn't make sense of our relationship.
We been messing around,,,maybe 10-11ish months? The only difference b/w her and any other yamb is the fact that we got crazy feelings for each other. After we first smashed, I was in NY for most of the summer, only came back maybe 2 or 3 times to set up my new crib. I liked her a lot at that time, but we had never spoke of being exclusive or anything, but I was naive to think it might've been implied becuase of the mutual feelings...
So I come back and find out that while I was gone for 3 months she smashed 2 guys, 1 of em being her ex. of 3 years. We never talked about being exclusive, but I can't say it wasn't really a big thing to me at the time. After the first month of school rolls around I smash 4 girls by the end of sept. Some new, some old. Then over some series of events we decide to be an exclusive thing. I wasn't smashing any other chicks, I was barely going out and if I did go out AND drink, I had 1 maybe 2 beers max. She knows the pw to my phone, tell her she can look through anything she wants. I was completely honest about everything.
I decide to try an take things another step, by letting my brother know that me and her are kind of a thing. She didn't want to, she wants to stay secret from ALL my peoples. She tells me she deaded her ex, but still has feelings for him. I'm like wtf. Around christmas time I go back to the fams, on twitter I see she got a gift from her ex... everything started making sense now. So I'm bent, not to mention the fact she's taking all day to respond to my messages. So I link up one of my old girls and smash while I'm back home. When I get back there, she says nothing about her and her ex at all.... the deceit was sooo real. I just decided to do my own thing, and I was close to dropping her, but I still had feelings for this girl
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So I start saying stuff like ' Oh, I'm gonna go kick it with one of my female friends' or 'I can't chill today cause I'm heading out with my boys' and I told her that I'm not gonna be playing this back nd forth bs with her and her ex. She's either with me or if she wants him, I'm deading her completely. She was crying on my shoulder about the thought of me not being there with her even as a friend. I know how much I mean to this girl, but that kind of snakery got me f'd up. AND NOW she wants to be that ride or die type girl, coming over everyday for the past few weeks. My bro knows now that we're sleeping together bc she makes it obvious like she's all good widdit now.
She would say things like ' I'm not in a relationship ' or 'I wonder what my husband is gonna be like/ what race my kids will be ' when we have conversations. So we have no intentions of being together in our futures. This exclusive thing didn't go how I imagined at all. This whole situation actually makes little-to-no sense to me. but that's the series of events that occured. I'm the type of person that when I get upset, hurt, or frustrated bc of a female screwing me over with another dude, the first thing that comes to my mind is another P.
I don't even know what to call her, so I call her 'my girl' cause she kinda is, and because I sometimes wish she was my girl, this is the only place I can say that.
I mess around because of all the lies and deceit that she's dealt my way. I've put up with a lot more bs than I can type, now I'm just kicking back and enjoying things.
CLIFFS
-We were never an official couple
-She smashed 2 dudes while I was gone
-I smashed 4 girls
-We talk about being exclusive
-she's being dishonest bout her ex / I think they smashed
- I feel justified for messing around with other girls
