Any NTers with a history of anxiety and/or depression? vol. struggling

[celticsfan9783]

Originally Posted by whyhellothere

how much do therapy sessions cost?
do they actually work?
info on meds?

My insurance always covered it so I never really saw bills. The only thing I payed for was a $15 co-pay. And honestly I don't think they worked anymore than talking to a friend or family member would. But she was a professional so I wasn't afraid of being judged. The thought of having a friend view me differently if I told him/her prevented me from opening up about it. 

As far as the meds, Lexapro is one of the more expensive SSIs. Even with insurance, I was paying a lot. I have like 2 weeks supply left and no more health insurance, so I'm in a tough spot. I've even been trying to take a pill every other day or more because when that bottle is empty I'm kinda screwed. It's obviously not doing what it should be though

 

[shoefreakbaby]

Originally Posted by whyhellothere

how much do therapy sessions cost?
do they actually work?
info on meds?

If you have insurance it should be covered with a co pay.
If you dont they also have some non profit, community center and church "free" ones with limited sessions.

Depending on where you live you'll pay between 80-200 a session.

 

[scshift]

If any of you guys want to send me a PM, I'm down to listen and talk about anything, doesn't even have to be related to anxiety or depression. Just talk about how boring school is, or cute girls or whatever.

I know a lot of people like to talk and vent when they're stressed, so I'm more than glad to lend an ear.

 

[db west]

Just a question, have any of you smoked marijuana before the condition?  I'm wondering if it could be caused by smoking, my friend has the same problem.

 

[oso23]

Originally Posted by DB WEST

Just a question, have any of you smoked marijuana before the condition?  I'm wondering if it could be caused by smoking, my friend has the same problem.

I smoked a while back and I actually felt better and was able to sleep.

 

[reyolystic]

I suffered from a few things to do with anxiety. I suffered from Derealization, pure ocd, and anxiety. I never took medication for any of them even through the worse of times when I could not even function. It has really effected my life I don't drive on the freeway anymore cause I have a phobia of it cause that's where it all started. I think of anxiety and all dat BS as storms and that no matter what you will always see some type of daylight. So no matter how bad it gets it always pasts and I think I am doing better now and I am still that funny outgoing dude errybody loves.

 

[raphy vengeance]

Originally Posted by CelticsFan9783

The first time I ever experienced symptoms was in 2007. I was finishing up my junior year in college and literally had no idea what triggered it. I only felt "comfortable" in my bed, my appetite drastically decreased, I was always worrying about little things and scared about what the future held. It was a terrifying experience. The only people I told about it were my folks. I felt like the biggest vag but couldn't do anything to snap out of it. So I see a therapist and get prescribed lexapro for the symptoms. It did work, but part of me thinks it was just the placebo effect.

Now fast forward nearly 5 years and I'm starting to get similar symptoms but more anxiety mixed in. Losing appetite, pit in my stomach, feeling unsure about the unknown. It's a bad feeling man. I know I sound like mental weakling but I have virtually no control of it. I have a hard time anyone outside of my family about it because there is so much stigma attached to depression. Figured NT would be a good place to get it off my chest.

I'd be interested in hearing similar experiences including how you went about battling the demons.

I never saw a therapist/psychologist so I was never officially diagnosed with depression/anxiety, but I've had symptoms of depression from time to time.  I was at my lowest point a few years ago when my girl left me.  Ran through the whole gamut of emotions: sadness, anger, loneliness, etc.  I had a hard time getting out of bed in the morning, wasn't motivated.  Yet at night I had a hard time sleeping because when it was quiet and I was alone, I would think of all the memories, and all sorts of scenarios of what I did wrong and what I could have done different to change the outcome.  It affected me physically too.  I had that pit in my stomach that wouldn't go away, I have this lump in my throat that's still here to this day.  My body was always sore.  I started to do bad in school, I started giving up on the things I loved, and I constantly wondered whether or not it was worth it to continue on. 

One thing that helped was that I actually talked to people.  I reached out to my friends that I haven't spoken to in a while.  I had deeper conversations with friends and family, and things like that helped put things in perspective for me.  The sun's gonna rise.  Time waits for no one.  I either stay in the past, or move forward with what I have to do to better myself.  Got back into playing basketball, refocused with school and I'm close to finishing up getting my associates in Real Estate and Business Admin. 

IMO everyone suffers from depression/anxiety, just in different levels.  I still have my good and bad days, just like everyone else.  The best way is to just stay positive and take things one day at a time.  Look for positives in everything you do, no matter how small they are.  To the OP and everyone else, good luck and keep fighting.

 

[sooperhooper]

I've had mental issues since freshman year in high school (97). I've never felt like it was so bad that I need to see a specialist, but there are times that I wish I did. Op your story sound similar to mine, but what I feel affected me was a mild case of post traumatic stress disorder. Once in 06 and again in 10. The most recent occurrence still affects me now. I know that I can't think as clearly as I usually do. I used to always stress myself out over small things and over analyze stuff. Hopefully I bounce back from this one like I did a few years back.

 

[shoefreakbaby]

Originally Posted by DB WEST

Just a question, have any of you smoked marijuana before the condition?  I'm wondering if it could be caused by smoking, my friend has the same problem.

A lot of research being done on this, and a lot of it is showing that it may cause a change in mental state.
Something about a chemical effect on emotion, memory and cognition that play a huge role in depressive symptoms.
But I think most people who smoke weed on a regular basis already have "something wrong" with them before they smoke so idk.

 

[whyhellothere]

CelticsFan9783  & shoefreakbaby

will look into, i have to stop ignoring the problem

 

[shoefreakbaby]

Originally Posted by scshift

If any of you guys want to send me a PM, I'm down to listen and talk about anything, doesn't even have to be related to anxiety or depression. Just talk about how boring school is, or cute girls or whatever.

I know a lot of people like to talk and vent when they're stressed, so I'm more than glad to lend an ear.

How nice!!!

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[raphy vengeance]

Originally Posted by scshift

If any of you guys want to send me a PM, I'm down to listen and talk about anything, doesn't even have to be related to anxiety or depression. Just talk about how boring school is, or cute girls or whatever.

I know a lot of people like to talk and vent when they're stressed, so I'm more than glad to lend an ear.

Off topic but are you on clublexus?

 

[an dee 51o]

Originally Posted by shoefreakbaby

Originally Posted by DB WEST

Just a question, have any of you smoked marijuana before the condition?  I'm wondering if it could be caused by smoking, my friend has the same problem.

A lot of research being done on this, and a lot of it is showing that it may cause a change in mental state.
Something about a chemical effect on emotion, memory and cognition that play a huge role in depressive symptoms.
But I think most people who smoke weed on a regular basis already have "something wrong" with them before they smoke so idk.

Links, or are you just talking out of your %%! again? [edit] No %%$% it causes a "change in mental state."

Anyways, smoking weed has helped my anxiety more than any prescription drug. I've said it on here a million times, and I'll say it again: medical marijuana saved my life. I was taking handfuls of pills for anxiety, depression, ADD, all sorts of stuff. The pills made me a zombie, weed just calmed my nerves and made me feel ok about things. I'm not saying it will help everyone, but you should at least give it a try. Purple strains and strains with high CBD are especially good for anxiety, in my experience.

 

[HEATHEN]

I was going to make a post with some of my background but instead I'll just cut straight to the advice....

- Counseling is worth it if you find the right psychologist, finding the right person is huge. Not just an individual whom'll just string you along and take your money. They need to take a very genuine interest in you.

- Cut out the drugs, even the weed. All it is making you is complacent, for another day, hour, or whatever you're just going to forget what's weighing heavy on your mind. Eventually it'll do the opposite and you'll just end up fixating more on whatever the issue is even while your high. Other drugs? Self-explanatory, cut it out. Even alcohol.

- Get away from negative people. Even lifelong homies and family, if you're surrounded by a negative element for years, dudes that are constantly caught up in some drama, drugs etc....You're just participating in a vicious cycle. Some people will always be the same, some people will always be stuck in the same place and it's sad. A lot of these people are our loved ones, but you can't let them hold you back, you need to go forward. Even family, moms and dads included, as hard as it is some of our parents are @%%!!$ up and just don't know how to be a parent. It's better to get yourself out of a household that makes you feel like +@** and won't respect your individuality, your beliefs and what you want to be in life than to let others control you just so they can live vicariously through you. Don't stay around abusive elements, period.

- Medication is subjective, it's not for everyone. I'm personally apprehensive of its long term effects on our brains. For some it'll increase anxiety, suicidal tendencies and depression. I found this to be the case for me in my teenage years. I chose to get off the medication a long time ago and just move forward without it, it's an uphill battle but it's worth it. If it helps, then there's no reason why you shouldn't be on it. If it doesn't you just need to try harder to be positive and surround yourself with positive and productive people. 
That's all I can say, stay positive and be strong all.

Another thing, a constant topic of discussion on NT that just makes me 

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- Women, give it a rest fellas, if you're depressed and you can't get a hold on your condition then being a relationship is not going to fix anything. Being in a relationship when you're not mentally healthy is a formula for disaster. Chances are it will not end well, and if you've grown up in abusive households (either physically or mentally) chances are that your relationship will turn ugly at some point. You'll end up alone and you'll end up hurting her and she'll end up spiting you and (not to mention you'll possibly be putting another person through mental anguish that could lead to depression for them, you don't want to do that to someone you care about). That's not the thing to do, get your mind right, situate yourself and then worry about relationships. That's not to say don't smash, it's alright, I encourage you to engage in NSA sex, but don't get emotionally involved with any girls until you've gotten a hold on your depression. You don't want to fall in love with a chick and your depression is making you insecure, unstable, etc. Girls don't want a guy whose all sad all the time, and you can't blame them. #SlapNT MAN UP! You don't NEED anyone to validate yourselves. 

 

[bombbiggidyphil]

I've been struggling with some of this for a long time now...but I'm almost positive medication wouldn't fix the problem (I've tried a couple back in the day). I'm sure my problems have to do more with me and my situation rather than my brain chemistry.

After years of fighting, I can't help but think that the path of least resistance might prove the most fruitful....in other words, instead of fighting your emotions/anxieties accept and explore them. Of course, a therapist will help you do just that (or they should at least).

 

[speakup23]

Originally Posted by shoefreakbaby

Originally Posted by scshift

If any of you guys want to send me a PM, I'm down to listen and talk about anything, doesn't even have to be related to anxiety or depression. Just talk about how boring school is, or cute girls or whatever.

I know a lot of people like to talk and vent when they're stressed, so I'm more than glad to lend an ear.

How nice!!!

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@ that spoiler. What the $%%*?

 

[shoefreakbaby]

Originally Posted by an dee 51o

Originally Posted by shoefreakbaby

Originally Posted by DB WEST

Just a question, have any of you smoked marijuana before the condition?  I'm wondering if it could be caused by smoking, my friend has the same problem.

A lot of research being done on this, and a lot of it is showing that it may cause a change in mental state.
Something about a chemical effect on emotion, memory and cognition that play a huge role in depressive symptoms.
But I think most people who smoke weed on a regular basis already have "something wrong" with them before they smoke so idk.

Links, or are you just talking out of your %%! again? [edit] No %%$% it causes a "change in mental state."

Anyways, smoking weed has helped my anxiety more than any prescription drug. I've said it on here a million times, and I'll say it again: medical marijuana saved my life. I was taking handfuls of pills for anxiety, depression, ADD, all sorts of stuff. The pills made me a zombie, weed just calmed my nerves and made me feel ok about things. I'm not saying it will help everyone, but you should at least give it a try. Purple strains and strains with high CBD are especially good for anxiety, in my experience.

Unless I kicked your dog, calm the freak down.
I said I was shaky about it because most people who smoke already have underlying problems.

It was talked about in one of my classes, I don't have the links to what the professor talked about it was a while ago.

http://www.health.harvard...pdates/update0503c.shtml

Carry on weed head.

 

[an dee 51o]

Originally Posted by shoefreakbaby

Originally Posted by an dee 51o

Originally Posted by shoefreakbaby


A lot of research being done on this, and a lot of it is showing that it may cause a change in mental state.
Something about a chemical effect on emotion, memory and cognition that play a huge role in depressive symptoms.
But I think most people who smoke weed on a regular basis already have "something wrong" with them before they smoke so idk.

Links, or are you just talking out of your %%! again? [edit] No %%$% it causes a "change in mental state."

Anyways, smoking weed has helped my anxiety more than any prescription drug. I've said it on here a million times, and I'll say it again: medical marijuana saved my life. I was taking handfuls of pills for anxiety, depression, ADD, all sorts of stuff. The pills made me a zombie, weed just calmed my nerves and made me feel ok about things. I'm not saying it will help everyone, but you should at least give it a try. Purple strains and strains with high CBD are especially good for anxiety, in my experience.

Unless I kicked your dog, calm the freak down.
I said I was shaky about it because most people who smoke already have underlying problems.

It was talked about in one of my classes, I don't have the links to what the professor talked about it was a while ago.

http://www.health.harvard...pdates/update0503c.shtml

Carry on weed head.

#1, you posted a article that is almost a decade old. The "research" used in that article is even older.

#2, The bolded part... lmao. This can't be life. Go yell at your teacher for failing you.

Have a good one!

 

[HEATHEN]

ya'll two, relax.

it's subjective an dee, not for everyone. I know from experience, smoked for ten years and it got to the point where when I was feeling depressed it would do nothing but perpetuate the negative thoughts and I'd be stuck on stupid. For a lot of people suffering from depression marijuana can have an adverse effect on your state of mind.


I'll probably smoke again, will probably smoke all my life, but only in extreme moderation (maybe a couple times a year). However I know on a daily basis, or even a weekly basis it had an adverse effect on me.


for those whom have never truly smoked, shut that neck. no amount of research gives you the right to an opinion. a lot of ignorance is spoken by people who haven't even so much as smoked a blunt (or whom have smoked for short a period of time and now feel as if though they know).

 

[shoefreakbaby]

Originally Posted by an dee 51o

Originally Posted by shoefreakbaby

Originally Posted by an dee 51o

Links, or are you just talking out of your %%! again? [edit] No %%$% it causes a "change in mental state."

Anyways, smoking weed has helped my anxiety more than any prescription drug. I've said it on here a million times, and I'll say it again: medical marijuana saved my life. I was taking handfuls of pills for anxiety, depression, ADD, all sorts of stuff. The pills made me a zombie, weed just calmed my nerves and made me feel ok about things. I'm not saying it will help everyone, but you should at least give it a try. Purple strains and strains with high CBD are especially good for anxiety, in my experience.

Unless I kicked your dog, calm the freak down.
I said I was shaky about it because most people who smoke already have underlying problems.

It was talked about in one of my classes, I don't have the links to what the professor talked about it was a while ago.

http://www.health.harvard...pdates/update0503c.shtml

Carry on weed head.

#1, you posted a article that is almost a decade old. The "research" used in that article is even older.

#2, The bolded part... lmao. This can't be life. Go yell at your teacher for failing you.

Have a good one!

So you dont think that certain people who smoke weed have underlying issues?

Yes I will go yell at my teachers for failing me.
That will help.

 

 

[an dee 51o]

Originally Posted by SneakerHeathen

it's subjective an dee, not for everyone. I know from experience, smoked for ten years and it got to the point where when I was feeling depressed it would do nothing but perpetuate the negative thoughts and I'd be stuck on stupid. For a lot of people suffering from depression marijuana can have an adverse effect on your state of mind.

I said in my very first post that he should just try. And I'm not talking about getting loaded all day every day. I smoke a bowl in the morning and don't feel "high," I can function perfectly fine.

Originally Posted by shoefreakbaby

Originally Posted by an dee 51o

Originally Posted by shoefreakbaby

Unless I kicked your dog, calm the freak down.
I said I was shaky about it because most people who smoke already have underlying problems.

It was talked about in one of my classes, I don't have the links to what the professor talked about it was a while ago.

http://www.health.harvard...pdates/update0503c.shtml

Carry on weed head.

#1, you posted a article that is almost a decade old. The "research" used in that article is even older.

#2, The bolded part... lmao. This can't be life. Go yell at your teacher for failing you.

Have a good one!

So you dont think that certain people who smoke weed have underlying issues?

 How did "most" turn into "certain?" Those words are very different to me.

 

[shoefreakbaby]

Originally Posted by an dee 51o

Originally Posted by SneakerHeathen

it's subjective an dee, not for everyone. I know from experience, smoked for ten years and it got to the point where when I was feeling depressed it would do nothing but perpetuate the negative thoughts and I'd be stuck on stupid. For a lot of people suffering from depression marijuana can have an adverse effect on your state of mind.

I said in my very first post that he should just try. And I'm not talking about getting loaded all day every day. I smoke a bowl in the morning and don't feel "high," I can function perfectly fine.

Originally Posted by shoefreakbaby

Originally Posted by an dee 51o

#1, you posted a article that is almost a decade old. The "research" used in that article is even older.

#2, The bolded part... lmao. This can't be life. Go yell at your teacher for failing you.

Have a good one!

So you dont think that certain people who smoke weed have underlying issues?

 How did "most" turn into "certain?" Those words are very different to me.

Im sorry kind sir, let me rephrase,
So you dont think that most people who smoke weed on a regular basis don't have underlying issues?

You are so amped up you dont even realize that I sort of agree with you, the research whether 10 or 20 yrs old,
 I feel could be inconclusive because you would have to know their mental state before they started smoking.
Im not coming for your weed, it ok.

 

[an dee 51o]

Originally Posted by shoefreakbaby


Im sorry kind sir, let me rephrase,
So you dont think that most people who smoke weed on a regular basis don't have underlying issues?

You are so amped up you dont even realize that I sort of agree with you, the research whether 10 or 20 yrs old,
 I feel could be inconclusive because you would have to know their mental state before they started smoking.
Im not coming for your weed, it ok.

No. Just like I don't think Joe who has a few drinks after work has underlying issues, either.

And if you sortof agree with me, your thoughts are quite muddled. I'm not amped, I've done a LOT of research on this subject and I call BS when I see it.

 

[651akathepaul]

Yes. It'll pass. Once you open your mind to the fact that live is FILLED with peaks and valley's it's easier to adjust and overcome.

 

[shoefreakbaby]

Originally Posted by an dee 51o

Originally Posted by shoefreakbaby


Im sorry kind sir, let me rephrase,
So you dont think that most people who smoke weed on a regular basis don't have underlying issues?

You are so amped up you dont even realize that I sort of agree with you, the research whether 10 or 20 yrs old,
 I feel could be inconclusive because you would have to know their mental state before they started smoking.
Im not coming for your weed, it ok.

No. Just like I don't think Joe who has a few drinks after work has underlying issues, either.

And if you sortof agree with me, your thoughts are quite muddled. I'm not amped, I've done a LOT of research on this subject and I call BS when I see it.

Well I guess we will have to agree to disagree because I believe if someone uses a drug on the regular  and it is not for medical use, you may indeed have some problems.
And if Joe cant get to bed without a beer, then yeah joe might have somethings he needs to sort out.


My original sentence was that I heard that they were doing a lot of research on this, it wasnt " yeah weed makes you depressive"