So here's my trip report:
A few things i jotted down during my trip that really resonated with me
"I'm not sure if i remember who I am, or creating who i wanna become but its better then who i was"
"If a picture is worth a 1,000 words then a symbol is worth a 1,000 pictures"
In preparation for the trip I've been fasting all week with only water, and one meal after sundown. I'm an experienced tripper (LSD, Shrooms, DMT)
I was a little worried going into the trip since my stomach was shriveled, and it would absorb the shrooms faster making it more intense.
I've been feeling really in tune with "it" lately, so for the duration of the trip i felt an extreme magnification of things i already had been thinking on, with a few trippy visuals but nothing compared to things ive experienced in the past.
My first thought:
The original woman of color was created in the reflection of god. When i first experienced this through DMT it was life changing, but its more or less become a simple truth to me. People who think God is a man dont realize theyre most likely worshipping the devil. The way men came to exist was god spit herself out with a masculine projection to see her polar opposite. Once she had knowledge of self she took her self back into complete the understanding and began creation. You see this manifested on a physical level everytime we have sex. This is the reason we spend a large portion of our time in preparation for acquistion of the yambs. You see this at an atomic level as well through +/- energy.
Matter isnt real. It's just a paradigm created to keep people caught in a cycle pursuing an illusion without ever obtaining knowledge of self. the reason this cycle is needed is because our consciousness is an energy that constantly creates. most people life their life never realizing the soul lives in prison created by the ego. much like a prisoner pleads for food and water, youll see when the soul is yelling out for help. most people cant hear the yells over the tv and cell phone ringers.
Word's powers are beyond measure. If you really look deeply at words they can help jog your memory. some words i were toying with in my head and intentionally mispronouncing:
africa= a free king, a free queen,
frequency= free queen see, free king see
sirius=see we us
allah-all us
-Side note if allah is all then, that mean it is positive, to be without the all, you would be negative thus a neg-uh
DNA is held in male sperm aka cum thus cumplex
Not sure if those meant anything, but in my opinion we've all got things we intentionally created in the past to help us remember who we are. The all seeing eye was originially meant to remind us to look for the truth.
The most significant thing i focused on this trip is positivity. based off the simple laws of attraction if youre positive in life youll attract all that you are lacking. Being positive is such a strong thing that anytime it's brought into physical existence the devil tries to take energy from it. The most obvious symbol being the cross in christian religion. A symbol that stood for being positive has been perverted with a story of a man that never existed. literally millions of people pour their energy into a false idol while churches priests pastors rake in the dough and peoples energy. the stealing of this energy even exist at a gramatical level as well
notice how a cross is in the middle of these words
sa+an
sain+nick(biggest holiday of the year)
sain+ etc
and to downplay the benefit of being positive, anything not of intelligence
s+upid
re+ard
I know all the above maybe nonsense, but it's helping me obtain my knowledge of self. The true alchemist is the one who realizes consciousness is the philosophers stone and can make something out of nothing.
I guess to rap it up, im not sure what the devil is or if its real, but I've gotten to the point where i dont care. If it isnt positive, about love or light it has to go by any means necessary.
I know that was kind of scattered brain, i'd be happy to discuss something that's coming off as jibberish to others.
Also forgot to mention this song. I always knew its meaning in the back of my head but today it really came to the fore front of my thinking and I was able to appreciate its beauty.