Meh i don't even really post on NT anymore, but what the hell.
-turn 25 next month... i really have moments where i feel like i haven't accomplished anything. Yeah i have a decent job, new car, own place, and im not anywhere near living check to check, but i feel like its still not enough. and idk why. Like who had a quarter life crisis lol
-I wish i had more female friends to chill with.... but having a gf i shy away from that. Im not eem thinkin about smashing any others, i just like hanging around girls. i have maybe like six but 4 arent that close and 2 have boyfriends. i'd probably be better off without more female friends because i'd probably get myself in trouble. actually i wish i had more friends to hang with in general. and the female friends they have are all fat, ugly, and annoying so i hate being around them for the most part
-i really have to fight the urge to smoke weed on a regular basis. I smoked everyday for about 4 years then had to stop to get this job i have now. basically didnt smoke for a year then smoked over the holidays and it was so damn great. i get the itch to do it but i have to resist so much because my job gives random drug test
-trying to think of a way/occasion/special time to propose to my girl. she says it doesnt have to be extravagant whenever i do it, but i know she would love it if i did just like any regular girl. Im definitely gonna do it within the next year, just have to figure out how.
-i really don't care about any of my family except my mom and sister. maybe my cousin and uncle but thats about it. It doesnt bother me that i dont care, but it bothers me that it doesnt bother me if that makes sense
. Its kinda my parents' fault i never had a really good relationship with all my family growing up and now that im older i don't really care to make that effort now.
feels a little better to get some stuff out
might be back