most family waits for the grandparent to die so they can get the money.....and if one kid swayed them to give them way more than the other then its going to cause division 9 times outta 10
This happenend to my family.Just like the movie Soul Food.
Used to have parties every weekend, holidays were a blast, get togethers at the park, huge picnics... ect.
Once my Grandma passed away (RIP) everyone seperated. I always tried to get everyone back together and host a party/graduationi/celebration.
But the chemistry, the "love" in the atmosphere is not there anymore.
It will probably never be the same. I wish I can go back in time just to experience it again...
I find myself staring at old photos and 30 second videos of the past and end up crying.
During my freshman year in HS, there was a girl that I had class with that committed suicide. I had sex ed. class with her and sat next to her in that class. Remember that Friday pretty vividly. She was usually decently talkative, but a little weird. It was the last class of the day before the weekend and she seemed a little down compared to normal, but nothing that stood out like a sore thumb. Friday ends, and during the weekend, I hear that she killed herself. I didn't believe it until I went to school and everyone was talking about it. Our teacher addressed it and told us it was true. Dude was literally in tears telling us. I talked to the dude that sat next to her on the other side and was like "did you notice anything?" He said he did notice that she was a little down or maybe tired, and I told him I kind of noticed it too. Turns out that her uncle has been sexually assaulting and molesting her for years and she couldn't take it anymore. She wrote a letter about it, so it all came out and the uncle is now in prison.
Trolling? Seems Like an odd thing to think about.
It just seems unreal to be with someone for so long and for them to just drop it like its nothing. I saw the signs so I knew it was coming. All the stuff she said was just BS I guess. Just can't understand why girls just string dudes along.
. Its kinda my parents' fault i never had a really good relationship with all my family growing up and now that im older i don't really care to make that effort now. might be back
Exactly so, our lifestyles don't match which is why I told her I can't commit. I felt terrible about the situation and this is a confession post. Moving on.
I think you got a lot going for you man, definitely have a lot to appreciate. I think it's really important to sometimes look back at what great things life has given you instead of what more you want from life. As people we just naturally aren't content and are always striving for more. It can sometimes be heaven and at other times hell. Doesn't sound like your settling for anything at all. I think you're good and honestly, it's pretty crazy that you're getting married soon. Tons of happy times waiting ahead.Meh i don't even really post on NT anymore, but what the hell.
-turn 25 next month... i really have moments where i feel like i haven't accomplished anything. Yeah i have a decent job, new car, own place, and im not anywhere near living check to check, but i feel like its still not enough. and idk why. Like who had a quarter life crisis lol
-I wish i had more female friends to chill with.... but having a gf i shy away from that. Im not eem thinkin about smashing any others, i just like hanging around girls. i have maybe like six but 4 arent that close and 2 have boyfriends. i'd probably be better off without more female friends because i'd probably get myself in trouble. actually i wish i had more friends to hang with in general. and the female friends they have are all fat, ugly, and annoying so i hate being around them for the most part
-i really have to fight the urge to smoke weed on a regular basis. I smoked everyday for about 4 years then had to stop to get this job i have now. basically didnt smoke for a year then smoked over the holidays and it was so damn great. i get the itch to do it but i have to resist so much because my job gives random drug test
-trying to think of a way/occasion/special time to propose to my girl. she says it doesnt have to be extravagant whenever i do it, but i know she would love it if i did just like any regular girl. Im definitely gonna do it within the next year, just have to figure out how.
-i really don't care about any of my family except my mom and sister. maybe my cousin and uncle but thats about it. It doesnt bother me that i dont care, but it bothers me that it doesnt bother me if that makes sense. Its kinda my parents' fault i never had a really good relationship with all my family growing up and now that im older i don't really care to make that effort now.
feels a little better to get some stuff outmight be back
It's definitely good to want others to strive for an active and healthy lifestyle, so I understand where you're coming from. It does seem to come off as a little selfish though because you basically want her to do it for your liking instead of for her own benefit. Don't put yourself down to much about it though, you're only human. She isn't what you want, and there's nothing wrong with that. Sometimes there just isn't anything better to do than to move on because that's what's fair for everyone. Don't feel to bad because you're not goona learn if you don't make mistakes. I can already see that you understand the situation wholeheartedly and that you recognize why you feel bad. It's good that you see past it, learn, and move forward.
